Sorry for the super late update guys - - i've been very busy for organizing our IT week - damn hehe XD - thanks for comment - by the way ___________________________________ [b]Chapter 12 Part 2[/b] [b]MIkko’s POV [/b] . . . its pretty unusual for a guy to start blabbering about his love life - kasi hindi alam ng iba ang mga lalaki eh may softer side rin - - - hindi nga lang lantaran , nakaka hiya na yon . . hahaha - - Wala si giro !! yeahhh ayos !!! - - he was away on paris - - and I got kc all to myself !! hahaha selfish mode ako mga dude ! . . pero . . pwede naman diba . . sinama ko si kc sa isang art gallery sa Fairview - - then sabi ko sa kanya - - mag uwi ng kahit anong painting dun - - money was not an issue so I told kc to bring home anything from the gallery - - Following that night - - I came early to her place - - hoping that she would be up by now ? its almost eight o clock - - - Sabi ni tita nasa kwarto daw - - puntahan ko nalang daw - - ( diba ayos ! family friend daw eh kaya pwedeng pwede na !! ) . . . I went inside the room - - and there I saw her - - - - She was . . . Sleeping – she looked really exhausted and tired and all but I can’t help it - - I saw pictures of giro and her - - (damn ) then I saw a scrapbook made by kc - - that contained pictures from the artworkshop - - nahhh - - - hindi to akin so - - iniwan ko nalang dun - - then umupo ako sa pc ni kc – she left it open and logged in so I browsed it all the way up to recycled bin ! haha – just kidding - - I saw a folder named “ literary crap “ . . . wow – it was full of poetic pieces and short stories . . . lol . I don’t have time to read all of this and its not right to read this - its private . . hehe . . but . . . tempting - - - - . hahaha .. then I noticed that she was kinda waking up so I talked to her - - “ so you’re a writer din pala - - - “ . . . . I said sarcastically “ huh . . ? “ she replied “ - - haha – ayos pala mga poems mo ha . . “ “ what !!?? Mikooooooo anong ginagawa mo dito sa kwarto ko ???? . . .tsk ! ! ! . . “ “ hahaha , sabi ni tita eh puntahan nalang daw kita dito sa kwarto mo ! hahaha - - “ “ huh ??? eh wala naman si mommy ? “ “ naka sabay ko siya kanina she came home at dawn nung nag jojog ako “ “ AISHHHH WHATEVER !!! alis alis alis , magbibihis muna ako - - “ Napansin ko ang liit nung shorts na suut niya and she was wearing a white shirt - - - aw mikko focus ! haha - - she grabbed a pillow then ordered me to wait downstairs - - the night before this – tinadtad ko si kc ng sobrang daming text messages na mag badminton kami . . hindi nag rereply siguro tulog na - - sa sobrang kakulitan ko , pag baba niya hindi ko siya tinigal na yayain na mag badminton - - - although hesitant siya sa simula - - pumayag din - - - . . YEAHHHHHHHHHHH! Haha We both went outside . . . walking past the porch I saw . . Giro ??? from paris !? . . O.O . . . . *surprised . . . . yeah I was really surprised – he was back this early ? . . that means , ? . . . . . Yep guys – that means - - - bye bye kc - - haha .. lol drama king . . . not gonna continue this part of the story - - - alam naman ng lahat how it all came up - - lol . . It all comes down to this honestly , ito yung pinaka ayaw kong mangyari , natatakot ako . . . kasi alam kong pag uwi ni giro dito , dahil sobrang namiss ni kc , si giro eh mas maging mas malapit sila sa isat isa - - who am I to argue with the reality they have – MABAGAL kasi ako masyado !!! . . daemmmnnnn - - Start of School Days … 2nd Semester – we got this new scary teacher , si miss LA . . sila takot , ako hindi haha - - , yep , ang schedules naming nina giro ay weird , giro - - lol , that guy ? I don’t even know why the hell we ended up becoming bestfriends or something , its weird – - lol I’m starting to hate him . . . he stole my girl ! - - During that class – she was annoying me on purpose I guess , doing this flirty gestures with Vincent – damn , naasara talaga ako nung time na yon , I wanted to punch his face silly . . . I partered with kim instead - - Kim told me . . . “ she’ll come around “ “ hmmm mikko – cheer up - - think why she’s doing it because she’s afraid that she’ll hurt your pal - - and I don’t know - - haiii confrontation lang yan =P , pray for it “ I couldn’t speak at all - - binabara ako ni kc for no apparent reason . . . I didn’t respond at all - - she knew I was off that time so she wrote a small script nalang instead , damn how much I owe kim for so much of investment she’s putting herself into - - kim gave me the awkward look that said “ its going to be alright “ - - I just nodded and smiled - - I couldn’t help myself - - I followed kc all through out the campus - - - people are staring , damn - - I realized while following her sa campus , library , wow she skipped meals - we ended up sitting in the bleachers and then I read the purpose driven life - - book – lol for a change - - she was sketching something - - I couldn’t help myself - - confrontation time ! “ kc . FLIp ka rin no !? si Vincent yon ! playboy yon ! at lolokohin ka lang non ! besides kayo ni giro diba ? “ tinapkan ko yung sketch pad niya “ uhmm ? yeah ? “ at napakamot naman ako sa ulo , crap ! “ kc - - pwede ba – lumayo ka sa mga lalaking katulad ni Vincent ! manglolokko yon ! “ i replied in total discust with that guy “ pakelam mo ba ! - - “ wow parang inaasar nga ako ah ! “ nag aalala lang po ! “ . . i replied calmly “ mangloloko ?? kaya siya nakipag group sakin is because - - hindi dahil naki pag flirt siya or something - - - he was seeking advice for his “NOW SERIOUS” relationship with his girlfriend - - - - “ “ O.o – " wow that was a relief Then . . I saw this weird emotion in her eyes - - pain , happiness ? nag mimix at the same time - - weird - - I followed her sa mall - - then ended up going to our last class Seeing giro sit up against the wall - - I realized - - damn , ganito nalang lagi tuwing hapon - - whats worse was , diditch na nga nila ako then giro made me take home there things, para less baggage , damn nakaka asar - pero hindi talaga pwedeng magalit so I needed to fake a smile - - YEAH BOI ! - - haha - - One last look at kc and giro entering his car - - - I saw kc , look at me . . I smiled - - the PAIN !!!! damn the pain – I waved goodbye then again , I pulled out a fake smile - - then I saw them go . . I went inside my car - - - I drove as fast as I could ,damn - - - I really hated what it felt --- - - I just wondered – giro – damn , he’s playing me - - he wants me to suffer - - pain is inevitable ,suffering is optional - - pero I cantget myself through , literally. Masakit - - yep masakit - - pero hindi ko talaga mafocus ang sarili ko - - I wanted to get home as fast as I could – - naalala ko si kim ( I just needed someone to talk to ) , I grabbed my cellphone and then called her . “ KIMOWWWW ! - - “ “ y-yeah ? mikow – whats up ? “ “ hey , are you free tonight need to talk to you about something - - - “ “ hmmm sure sure - - hehe may life group ngayon dito sa fat larrie’s ( steak house ) – tabi lang ng campus sunod ka ? “ “ yep , thanks , kimmy I owe you big “ “ no problemow – sige sige , see y---------------------------- Then before I could say goodbye , or something - - I just saw a light - - coming against me while I overtaked - - A few moments later - - - I woke up - - in a bed , I was in a hospital - - Katie & eriko are right beside me . . . what happened ?? damn [b] KC’s POV[/b] my giro - - and I went the mall - - typical date as always - -he took me home - reaching home our doorstep - - I got a text message from kim - - it said ” KC ! SOMETHING’S HAPPENED !!!!!! KITA TAYO A.S.A.P- - - - “ My eyes then grew wide , in total shock - - I rushed outside , looking for giro - - to my horror wala na siya - - crap !!! wala na akong load - - damnnnn - - what happened ?? - - I couldn’t think - - then suddenly --- I got a call from giro , telling me that he rushed to the emergency room - - - - - his voice sounded raspy and worried , and so was mine There was silence in me for about 10 seconds , “ KC , you there ???? “ .. “ uh yeahhh what happened ?? “ “ mikko was in an accident . . . stay put - - “ . . . oh my god - - then I felt this weird pain in my chest again - - I was , completely - - devastated . . “ . . I w-want to go - - please ? “ “ . . nahh stay put okay , its late - - “ “ . . I’m gonna go there myself - - - - “ I hanged up and then for a moment , I felt anger , na hindi ko alam kung bakit . then I felt pain.. I rushed down to the hospital immediately - - i saw kim , I asked her – what happened ??? she was speechless she just told me that mikko was lying down at room 323 .. I bumped into giro - - at first hindi ko na napansin na siya yung naka bunggo ko , he grabbed me . . “ heyy ! . . “ “ w-what are you doing here . . . ? tsk , did I told you stay put ??? I was calling you home - - tsk nawala ka nanaman - - “ “ . . . tsk, I got worried . . kasi naman - - - “ “ don’t worry okay ? . mikko’s fine - - he’s inside - - . “ “ yeah yeah , what happened ba kasi ?? “ “ his car flipped - - and went off road - - he was found unconscious , 20 meters away from the scene - - - “ I was shocked again to hear that , but I didn’t want to cause controversy so I looked like as If I was unaffected . . “ oh okay – hehe sige . . gonna check him up . . “ he let go of my hands - - i rushed inside the room with kim , we saw him lying down there - - katie was on his side , kim was shocked and so was i to see him like this - - - i pretended that i was unaffected , i showed blank emotions - - - katie told me that mikko was looking for me , it went like this . . "w-where-es . kc , - - g-giro ?" Katie told me that mikko had asked this , in a whisper ish tone " aw, tsk. ano ba . shutup . okay ? your not in the condition to open that mouth , wag kang pasaway " " - - hehe , ayos lang ako nohhh - - - " " kc went outside - -" " ahh - she came . . hehe please tell her na yung gamit niya andun sa bahay - - along with giro's headphones . . . baka magalit si giro pag nawala yun - - " " NGEK . . wala yun promise , ako bahala . . tsk ! ! basta . .pahinga ka nga - - muna - - do you want me to add salt your bruises !!! > hahaha " " baliw , bahala ka - -zzzzzz " i just replied . . " ahhh " - -then nagpunta ako dun sa labas nung room , then si giro pumasok ng room - - - - i told him that i was gonna get a soda , i went outside the building, sat down sa bench , and just stared on the city lights - i coudnt help it - - lumabas nalang bigla ang luha ko na parang gripo - - - darn ... i forgot my hankie inside - - before i knew it , eriko gave me his hankie and told me . . “ tsk tsk tsk , kc , let go na kasi =P “ “ huh ? “ “ hahaha giro’s gonna kill me - - “ “ yaan mo siya , baliw yun ! tsk ! “ sinabi ko na kunwari natatawa ako, “ hmm , bakit ka umiiyak ? “ tsk napaka straight forward naman nung tanong niya - - “ huh ? inaantok na ko , syempre , humihikab - - you know ? duhhh ? “ *sniff *sniff naman ako haha … So he told me that mikko was hurrying up and - - - - - . . tsk nvm , naiiyak lang ako remembering mikko’s accident – basta mikko was lucky that eriko noticed mikko’s car on the road . and he ended up here - - - bumalik nalang kami sa loob ng kwarto - - I saw giro – he was looking down , I sat next to him . . . asked him “ hey - - - “ “ your back .. “ he whispered “ m-musta na si mikko ? “ “ he’s asleep – suffered minor wounds - - he’ll be out in a week - - - “ “ ohh . . . . “ for a moment - - nakita ko nanaman ang sobrang lungkot na mata ni giro - - he was looking down - - Katie , kim and eriko sat across the room - - his parents , is on a business trip - - and is likely to visit later daw - - “ - - uwi na kita ? “ giro asked I was honestly confused dun sa tanong niya - - pag sinabi ko na I want to stay and nurse him for a while - - it would cause controversy - - pag umuwi naman ako , I’m gonna be deeply worried and hindi ako makaka tulog nito - - naisip ko nalang . . . “ kung nasan ka - - dun nalang ako “ “ . . . thanks kc - - I’m really worried . . . damn - - ano nanaman ang pumasok sa mokong na to at nagawa pang sumemplang sa kalsada . . “ he replied sarcastically - - I laughed a bit - - then I pinched him sa cheeks and told him. . “ hmmmpffffff - - - “ “ whut ?? hehehe XD “ “ wala wala hehehe , “ then he gave me that cute-sy look again - - the whole night , I tried to divert myself from the easing pain inside me na si mikko ay na disgrasya - - tsk !!!! - - baka pag nagising to , hindi na niya ako kilala - - baka may amnesia na to pagka gising niya - - tsk !!!!! - - I saw katie , tulog na tulog sa balikat ni eriko , si eriko naman tulog rin - - while kim , ipod and reading twilight - - - - I just laid down my head dun sa balikat ni giro and slept - - Then I had a dream . . . I was walking down in a long hallway - - mikko was walking with me and holding my hand tightly - - I was never letting go . . by the end of the hallway - - I saw door - - it said “ paradise “ . . . i knew what it was , then pain inside me grew - - I wanted to cry but before I could – he hugged me very tight and whispered - - “ I love you - - - -- - goodbye - - kc “ . . before I could even speak a word . . he let go . and then went the other side . . . I couldn’t move myself - - it someone was holding it against me . . . I turned back , it was giro - -then suddenly – naramdaman ko yung parang weird na feeling na malalaglag ako - - I woke up - - In total worrying I looked at the hospital bed , I saw mikko - - *sigh , what a relief . . .I told myself , giro came inside with breakfast and coffee - - mikko was awake ? and was weirdly hyper ?? “ DUDE !!!! - - haha may cast ako !!!! asteeg . . “ “ haha pare , tae ka kasi mag maneho !! kas kasero - - - “ “ hehe , tinanong ko doctor ko na gusto kong lumabas na mamaya , bago pa dumating parents ko , I don’t want them to worry much - - hehe – “ “ nope dude, you stay hehe “ “ whuh ? haha – dude , schoooool’s gonna miss mee ! “ “ luko haha XD – stay dude , please ? “ Naka tingin lang ako sa kanilang dalawa they seem to be in good shape naman ( not literally ) - - mikko looked at me then winked - - sit was Tuesday so I needed to go to school - - so I went up and waved goodbye at mikko - - I smiled – giro accompanied me home - - I got dressed - - then went straight to school . . giro was absent the whole day - - sabi niya sunduin nalang daw niya ako - - - it was totally weird this semester , I was less excited , Katie was always out , and so was kim - - - I was alone all day - - tumatambay nalang sa bleachers , habang naka upo , naalala ko lang si mikko , first week ko , he gave me the cold shoulders then suddenly nag sorry ? then he hugged me for the first time - - - then came giro - - tsk ! – gawd , I hate reminiscing the past !!!!! - I called giro and told him to pick me up - - A whole week na puro ganun nalang - - I cant help but not look at his house when I enter our house - - - i went to the nearest sari sari store , kasi super bored ako one day - - it was a Friday - - so nag decide ako na tumambay kina aling mista - - hehe – sari sari store , across our block - - - bumili ako ng m&m’s , chinika ko si aling mista - - “ aba kc , kamusta ka na ? balita ko eh na ospital si mikko . . napano ? “ “ hmmpf ayun tsk , nakaka inis mag maneho ayan , haii “ “ aynako ayos lang yan - - magiging ayos din ang lahat - - “ So I killed time talking to her , all day , she told me na mikko grew up in the subdivision daw - - - mikko , babaero daw dati yan – pero he decided to be serious , for 3 years single daw siya , sobrang chick magnet sa campus – pareho sila ni giro - - - then dumating daw ang isang “dalagita” ( ang cheesy ng tawag ni aling mista - - pero simula ng lumipat yung isang dalagita dito sa subdivision nila – “ nagbago daw si mikko “ . . .) . . . - - - - - - - - - - natahimik ako , naalala ko lang si mikko - - naalala ko yung kakulitan niya - - I decided to visit him sa hospital later that day. Si Giro ay nasa band rehearsals daw so I went there by myself - - Honestly ? my heart was thumping really really hard - - I didn’t know what to tell mikko , hehe XD mental block kungbaga ? I don’t know how will I explain myself - - im just worried naman kasi kaya I wanted to check him up – I rushed , - hoho I arrived at the hospital at 14:00 - - rushing down the hall, reaching his room . . . I saw him . . . sleeping Sleeping like an angel . . . that was a huge weight off my shoulders , seeing him okay - - who knows ? he might woke up – with an amnesia ! tsk ! masyado akong nag aalala - - looking at him, he was seriously vulnerable-looking that time - - I was really caught off guard - - its not really late so , nagbantay nalang ako --- hihihi XD - - tita told me to look after him for a while kasi babawi daw siya ng tulog , I humbly accepted . Andun lang ako naglalaro ng PSP ! ni mikko ! – sumasakit na yung mata ko habang pindot ng pindot nung x , y square at triangle na yun although enjoy naman - - then came to the point na I was really really bored - - I watched tv. Listened to hillsongs ( from kim ) 20:00 – so okay , 6 hours akong naka upo dun , I texted giro na I’m gonna be looking after mikko for a while hehe XD , . . . . hindi nag reply ?? -- Then suddenly - - I heard mikko whisper . . “k-k-k-c . . . “ I quickly turned my attention to him , holding my cellphone . . I was really floured . . so I told myself - - dream lang yun – nothing much ? , then again he said . . “ . . . .s-s-s-s-s-s-s-orry - -kc - - i-i—l-ove - - - “ * phone rings - - - - ________ ” WUB !!! “ “ hey ! I “ I said in a l0w tone “ something wrong ? “ “ nope ! “ I told him trying to be cheerful and all “ oh hehe XD – text me nalang what time will I pick you up there okay ? the band has been facing so much trouble since mikko is gone , okay ? be safe ! “ “ sure . . “ “ love you “ “ . . . love you too” I said .. - - - then I heard a sound . . “ I loveeee youuuu toooo - - uyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy “ . I turned to my right , It was mikko !!! - -tsk !! gising na pala siya - - - “ HUH !? . . . gising ka nap ala - - “ “ hehe XD its weird but I wanted to ask . . what brought you here ? “ “ I left something the other night , binalikan ko lang “ . . I lied “ hmmm - - pero naka upo ka ? at kita ko ang eye bugs mo ? it means you’ve been here for quite some time . . haha XD “ “ whutever - - i cant leave , I promised your mom , that I’m gonna look after you for while “ “ ah ganun – so go ? maiintindihan naman niya pag bigla ka nalang nawala dito after all – your with my bestfriend naman eh - - “ he said then smiled - - “ . . . . “ I never replied - - I just grabbed the PSP and played tekken - . . . then I just continued playing with his PSP , not having the mentality na kanya nga pala yun - - “ alam mo nung kinalaban ko si jinpachi , si jin ang ginamit , cool attacks hehe XD “ “ aw , crap I forgot - - - ito na – I got bored kasi – “ I quickly handed over to him his PSP in total embarrassment - - “ ngek ,if you want to use it , hehe XD sayo muna its much better than listening to my annoying rants all day you know - - “ he replied “ may point ka dun - - “ “ hahaha XD at sinakyan mo naman - - hahaha , seriously ; what brought you here ? “ ” that’s not important - - “ “ . . tsk . . . haii bitter ka nananamn - - for something na hindi ko alam kung bakit ba ,o ewan ! basta – kc - - tsk - I don’t know whats bothering you about me , but – sana naman sabihin mo , hirap akong matulog tuwing gabi kaiisip - - “ kaiisip ? “ I replied in a whisper-ish tone “ that’s not important “ binelatan niya ako - - then he showed me that squeezed face look - - I rolled my eyes - - then siguro napansin niya na I was a bit annoyed - - kaya he then grabbed my hands – I blushed naman - - tsk ! tagal na naming magkakilala kahit papano pero bakit nag blush ako ?? weird .. tsk ! - - I didn’t take it off just yet – I just looked at it - - feeling his soft hands - - “ seriously kc . . . can you please tell me ? “ “ . . . “ I just looked down and whispered “ I-I’m gonna stay outside for a while “ . . I turned then was about to stand up - - pero his wasn’t letting go , he just whispered in his soft tone “ please ? “ I felt like he was too weak to stand up or maybe just tired - - I just closed my eyes - - then touched his arms - - “ I’m really sorry for what I’m p-putting you through . . . . “ I told him “ I know what your going through . . . I’ve been there kc . . and the fact that you’re here , means a lot -- “ “ . . . please - - just - - be okay - - - - be safe . . . next time okay . . . ??? “ I replied , composing myself - - helding back tears - - “ tsk . . naman oh - - tsk - - stop worrying okay . . anjan naman si giro para sayo - - - - “ . . . . that was really painful for him in his part to say that the way he said it . . he was smiling and was still holding my hands - - ano ba kasi ang meron samin at bakit ganito ka tindi ang nararamdaman ko sa kanila pareho - - - “ - - - walang iwanan - - -“ I murmured “ never - - - “ he said In an assuring tone . . . I don’t know how to describe what that felt like - - - Then it ended up All night we just played with his PSP at nagpapa taasan ng score sa survival mode ng tekken - - giro phoned in , telling me that his rehearsals just finished – and Is coming to pick me up - I saw mikko’s facial expression changed , he became sad I guess - - tsk – pansin ko na mejo nag moodswing siya when he found out na susunduin ako ni giro - - I cheered him up - - hehe XD - - with no signs of success ; It was total silence - - for about 20 minutes yata - - I sat beside him - - I did try to anoy him - - I tickled him …he was kinda annoyed - - pero naka smile parin - - hahaha XD - - parang virus ang moodswing naming- kanina ako , then now siya naman - - wala bang momentum na tuloy tuloy lang ang happiness ?? tsk - - - he just showed me his weird grin , smiling , I pinched him - - pero still during that time - - I was with this feeling na happiness like this would never last a lifetime - - dahil sa situation ko ngaun - - after a few moments I heard knocks I quickly got down the bed – to the point of falling down instantaneously ” whoa ? you okay ? “ he asked “ YUP ! hahaha XD “ I answered smiling – he laughed It was giro - - may bit bit na krispy kremes !!!!! YEY !!!! hahaha XD - - I was about to grab one – when he said .. “ OOPSS !! kay mikko yan - -- hahaha XD “ he said - - “ tsk ! penge !!! “ “ HAHAHA BELAT AKIN YAN lAHAT !!! “ sabat naman ni mikko “ tsk ang daya . . sige magsama kayo . . . “ Giro handed down the box and then said . . “ tsk uyyy glait na siya – I’m never gonna leave my wub ? - - hehe XD “ ” hmpff hahaha “ Before leaving the room - - the box was left untouched ( hayyy the krispy kremes ) and mikko smiled - - - I smiled back , it felt weird though - - but at that split moment , it felt like as if there was hope on something good that’s gonna happen . . hahaha XD I don’t make sense LOL ) XD ..pero that’s what I felt . weird - - riding giro’s car - - I was just looking out the window - - staring at the night sky - - then out of nowhere I asked “ hmm , busy ka sa band practice right , want me to look after mikko ? “ He paused for a moment - - “ w-why ? hehe “ “ wala lang - - “ “ sige “ before I could finish my sentence , inunahan na niya ako - - - - “ oh okay ? “ I replied and smiled back - - - . . . weird ? That was a huge weight off my shoulders - - kasi alam ko na every after school I’m gonna go straight to the hospital to look after mikko , mikko has no idea , Katie and kim frequently visited but not as much as I did , kung pwede lang na tumira ako dito sa ospital , siguro ganun na nga ang gagawin ko - - sabawan ang lagging nangyayari samin ni mikko - - pinaglalaruan ang camera ng phone niya - - it was always fun - - hmmm , giro didn’t seem to mind it - - I was always helping him catch up with his school works , “ chin chin ! “ he always greeted me , everytime I’d enter his room— ” hey ! – tsk , inubos mo na yung krispy kremes ! “ “ nahh – hindi noh , I know that you liked it so ndun sa fridge - - “ ^ I checked the box and then I was surprised to see O.O that the box was left untouched - - “ thanks “ I replied “ hahahaa - - kaw pa, eh alam ko naman na indi ka weight conscious ! at may plano kang maging over-weig- - - “ “ yabang mo !!!!! hahaha XD “ I grabbed a pillow then smacked the part kung saan my cast siya - - he reacted as If he was in total pain , siya naman – ayun nag iinarte dun sa kama na ang sakit daw - - “ arghhhh - - - array naman oh ! “ “ lalalala , wala akong naririnig , YUMMM sarap ng donughts – hmmmmmmm” Sabawan mode talaga kami - - his doctor would always frequently check up on him .and siya naman he was always goofy tuwing may checkup siya – ako andun taga suway sa kasalawan ni mikko – at ngayon ko lang nalaman na siya pala ay takot sa injection , well that was I thought kasi nung first time na bloodtest siya - - he grabbed my hand and squeezed it really really hard , then ako totally clueless - - I saw tears from his eyes ,and he was whimpering . “damnnn . . tsk ….. naman nanghihina ako oh - - “ or maybe masakit lang talaga - - I don’t know - - his doctor informed me na he’s free to go home anytime since tapos nanaman daw yung pag rerecover ng wounds niya , not totally pero , pwede na daw siya ulit bumalik sa dati niyang lifestyle- “ narinig mo yon !? “ I grinned “ yep – y? “ “that means , papasok ka na ulit “ I said in an annoying tone “ nahhh - im paying for all of this naman eh – kaya I’m gonna stay here for as long as I want - - hahaha “ he flashed his eyes and smiled , yung big smile na pang asar - “ hmm nope - - uuwi ka - - “ “ haha , now your ordering me ? “ “ nope , I command you ! “ in a playful tone , I replied “ you wish , “ he sarcastically replied - - so okay – almost a week na puro ganyan kami ni mikko and nag pa extend pa siya ng 2 days - - giro , minsan minsan lang dumayo dito – most of the time pa pag susunduin ako , they rarely talk nga eh - - somehow , nagiging distant na siya since I looked after mikko ditto sa ospital - - - I was starting to feel weird again . . tsk . after a few days na puro tawa – syempre hindi ko maiiwasan ang serious talk kay mikko - - at ang nakaka inis pa dun – ay siya ang nag start – While we were watching just like heaven ( DVD ) - - he suddenly asked “ kc - - mahal mo ba si giro ? “ I paused - - shocked, told myself – its gonna be one of those days again - - “ yup why ? “ “ then why are you here with me . . . ? “ he cautiously asked , I mean ano yun ? did he asked that because somehow he felt bothered by my presence - - “ w-w-wulalang - - “ tsk panic mode - - “ okay – I get it - - weird though , a few months back , I asked you na wag lolokohin si giro - - its damn stupid na even I cant keep that promise - - “ he took a deep breath and said “ damn, I cant sleep at night - wondering kung asan ka - - - kung ayos ka lang ba , so everytime you would be inside the room , that’s always a big relief and your presence here means a lot - - “ he camly said - - I was caught off-guard - - “ so what are you saying - - ? “ “ nevermind – may I ask , what really made you stay here ? I mean - a few weeks ago , nagging bitter ka nanaman then , nung andito nako sa ospital – nawala rin , lol alam ko na ! I need to be accident prone pala to get your attention ! hahaha XD “ he remarked - - that was really annoying “tsk , uuwi na nga ako – I hate this kind of conversations , “ “ okay – hmmm – I’m getting bored here --- lets go out sometime “ he casually said “ hello ?earth to YOUUU? duh – that’s like- - not gonna happen ? like ever ? “ “ eh pano kung pilitin kita - - “ “ mikko mikko mikko – your charm doesn’t work that way nemor ! “ “ oh really ? “ - - he quickly got up and then grabbed me – like a bear hug – he never let me go –it was like really really tight – and then he tickled me , it was like torture – and at the same time it felt weird . It ended up in a really awkward position. He was on top of me and he was looking at me straight in the eyes - - he was staring blankly in my face - - I felt my heart again - - he gave me this warm look – “ I want you kc - - - - - you know that – “ “ - - - s-sorry - - “ I whispered Then I felt his fingers making its way down my face – “ yeah sure I get it - “ He stood up a bit again’st his position and then he laid down - - ako andun lang sa kama niya ( yes nagkasya kami dun ? weird ) - - - After a while he got up and said – “ I’m outta here “ – he removed those weird plasters and then got out of the room – not even wearing his slippers – tsk ! ang kuleeeetttttttt talaga ! – he wandered the hospital barefoot – and came back with 2 drinks – hershey’s French vanilla coffee - - me ? I just sat down dun sa chair sa tabi ng kama niya – - - - Then - - he took off his shirt ?? then his shorts and all he was left was his boxer’s “ aiissshhhh mikko naman nakakahiya yang mga pandisal mo ! haha“ I started to cover my face He just gave me that deceptive look and then he just came towards me - - I felt butterflies inside my tummy before I knew it he just came in front of me and grabbed the towel beside at my back - - he said “ I’m goin out – outta here – una ka na kung gusto mo – “ he said while taking a bath “ huh? Magchecheck out ka na ? – “ “ yup – you can go if you want “ “ hehe sige hintayin na kita - - - “ “ maglalakad lang ako pauwi – sure ka ? “ “ yeah yeah sige , “ “ okay ! “ Mikko got out of the bathroom – wearing just his shorts – I took his shirt and threw it at his face and told him – “ mag tshirt ka nga ! “ “ bakit ba !? hahaha “ he sarcastically replied Maghahapon na - - - - - he checked out of the hospital he was cleared out – and like what he said he wanted to walk home - - which was like 4kms away from here – I wasn’t hesitant because I can’t not hang out with him, he was always sweet and jolly like – even though they all told me na super suplado at super yabang daw ni mikko dati – ang mahalaga ngayon hindi na – he was always smiling and he always wanted to hold my hand - - - - he immediately dragged me to kim’s church kasi may service daw sila – since ako ay isang Christian na I humbly accepted . imbis na umuwi na kagad kami he took me kim’s church ahihihi – kim saw us was very surprised to see mikko out of the hospital - - - she was extatic – The service ended - - - mikko again dragged me in this weird place dun sa church nila – Sa likod - - ? dun sa may garden - - - overlooking the whole city - - it was windy - - we sat dun sa bench - - - again , he held my hand; he squeezed my hand softly , and then he camly said “ kc kc kc , the one thing that I’m never gonna have - - “ ” huh ? “ I replied in total clueless-ness “ I really love you know - - my book is still and is always gonna be open for yah –but you chose to be a part of somebody else’s life instead and I humbly accept that defeat -“ “ w-what are you saying - - “ I replied and was never looking at him – afraid to show how my face felt all that “ I’m leaving tonight , permanently and never coming back “ “ . . . . “ I looked down - - I didn’t reply to that - - I just looked down and looked at his face – and got up - - - he noticed that somehow - that I was about to cry - - when suddenly he just hugged me from behind . . . I will remembered how sweet that felt – I touched his arms while he was hugging me and closed my eyes. Ang sakit nanaman – pero ayoko ng sabihin – aalis na siya – I need to learn to let go – may boyfriend na ako – si giro; I broke away from his arms and continued walking - - - He also followed as predicted and then grabbed my hand –and said “ tsk naman oh – ayan ka nanaman ! “ “ let go of me . . . “ I replied softly - - * pushes me against the wall . . blocks the other way with his arms - - " - - - " " . . " i just stared at him blankly " your so attractive when you show me that blank facial expression of yours " his hands touching my face downwards . . " . . .i'm really s-sor- - " i'm really speechless - - before i could even finish my last thought , his finger covered my mouth and then he said . . " yeah i know - - thats why i'm leaving it all be - - its gonna make all this pain go away ? capiche ? " " - - - p-please ? - - can you please not leave ? “ I replied " things can't work out if the both of us would be here with you , i know that you have made your pick - and i accept it " he said while smiling , pero I can sense the pain that he’s feeling right now i just stared at him - - i can't control my tears , damn tulo nalang ng tulo - - ang sakit - - “ am never gonna forget you - - - “ he said and while leaning his forhead again’st mine - - his face got close - - Closer than I imagined . . . Our lips met , that soft lips – I really missed him - - - It was then cut short by a distant i heard someone say " WHAT THE FUCK !? "