my crush who turns out to be my first love hurt me 5 times already. she said to me that i am a loser, a failure, and all things you've never imagine that exist >.< but still i love her for the way she is. even though she slaps me in front of the crowd. humiliate me in front of her family and her friends. i still love her. i am still patient with her, i can still wait. i court her for a year now and still i got rejected 3 times and she played my heart twice, it hurts so bad but i get used to the pain. maybe that's love it brings out the true stupidity of me. waa, its new year we should spread smiles waaa