hey for my own opinion: you have just created a forbidden love. congratulations. i am sure that your in pain right now. but please try to let go. here in the philippines. we don't deal that kind of relationship. i am sure if your parents would knew this, they will kill u wahaha. lets just say that your "cousin" is your first degree cousin. thats really a sin. wakoko. try looking for other guys. there lots of fishes in the sea. just be patient. and too, your using sticky caps. waa. that's no-no in the rule book and this is not a regional thread. try to edit your post.