its really hard to love someone whose very NUMB! the more he/she feels important to you, the more he/she will neglect you.. it's so hard to make them feel that you love them.. if you try to give them a clue about what you really feel.. they will just laugh and try to joke you even though your serious! they just keep on doing their thing like there's no one being affected! whew.. don't know what to do.. maybe.. it's just the fact that were.. "FRIENDS ONLY" how much painful it is.. you still need to accept it.. but sometimes you can't help to fall in love with someone who doesn't love you at all.. how sad it was.. but i know, there are still persons out there whose really meant for me.. hope for that person to come into my life..