Without any hesitation, I immediately replied: -[i]gdnght. bkas ult.[/i] My heart jumped. My heart stood still. My heart want to burst. hell! I don't know! Badtrip! I don't know kung ano dapat kong maramdaman. Mixed Emotions. I'm happy yet sad. I saw the car of Mama. But, err, I didn't. I mean, di ako bumaba para buksan ang gate. I dunno. I'm just tired. "tyna!!" I just look up. Nakaka haggard. I want to count the stars. But it seems to be that I can't. "tynaaaa!!!" I looked down. Wala. Wala akong mafeel. Finally, I got tired that's why I went straight to my room. I looked up to the ceiling. Imagining. Imagining what will happen tomorrow. Dapat ko ba siyang iwasan? Pero kung iisipin mo, ang tanga ko masyado. Ang babaw ng rason kung bakit ako umiiyak. Enough. It's already infatuation, not love. not love, not love. [i]Thursday..[/i] I woke up with a big blank on my face. I felt the pillow. Naman. Ang babaw ko talaga. Ako? Umiiyak? Yuck. No way. I think mag-aabsent ako ngayon. My whole body really aches. And him. I'll try to keep distance. Ayoko muna siyang makausap. Ewan. "tyna?" I heard knock knocks. "hmmmmmm..." "wake up my dear, you'll get late.." *sigh* I know ma, I'm just tired. I'm pressured, Physically and Emotionally. My mom kept on talking. and talking. She's like an AM radio. I covered my ears using the soft, wet, pillow. "urgghhh.." finally. she opened the door. of course, acting mode na to. she touched my neck. "wala ka namang lagnat ah.." "hayy, ok fine." naman o, papasok na nga. Im sure my mom will turn into a ferocious bubbly monster in any minute if I will not stand up. There I go, I went to the school, yun nga lang, nakakabadtrip coz it's raining so hard. Everyone loves thrusday, except me. I hate thurday. It's an unlucky day. "good morning kirsten " Eric greeted. "uhh. good am rin." I smiled awkwardly and immediately sat down. "uy tyna..." Melvin murmured. "hell and damnation! what do you want?!!" calm down tyna. you're over the limit. I gave a very heavy sigh as if I was carrying a big boulder again. "w-wala.." Yeah, he's upset. and I DON'T REALLY CARE if he feels that way. "yun naman pala eh. for heaven's sake, can you please shut your mouth?! " gaah. This isn't me. Cool ka lang tyna. Please. I'm a good person not like this. hell, what's happening to me. The teacher came and started the discussion. Damn, our graded recitation is today. oh my goodah sira na, sira na katawan ko, grade ko, pati ba naman puso ko masisira na rin? "okay, where's costudia??" oh my gosh. It's me. teka, easy lang to. Biology lang. sige, ayus lang "ah, eh.. yes ma'am??" "can you solve that??" I glanced to the black board. Egad! Calculus?? holy smokes, no way! wala akong alam diyan. "I guess there's no choice but to solve it.. " I whispered. Fine. I've been standing here for almost five minutes yet hindi ko pa rin nasasagot. What the heck is this? T.T I can hear HIM screaming for the answer. But I heared Ma'am Trina saying, [i]Your recitation points will be deducted if you will help her..[/i] darn. wala na. I just shook my head and wrinkled my nose. "Ma'am, i'll help her.." I heard the footsteps. I saw Melvin. "here's the answer.." Darn. I don't need your effin help. "bwisit ka! kaw na nga lang sumagot!" I threw the chalk at him. I heard everyone's expressions. As i said before, I don't care. [i]Dismissal[/i] Yeah. The rain didn't stopped. I bitterly smiled at myself. It's sign na walang klase bukas. hehe. So ayun, As I was walking to the Sci Garden, I heard footsteps. But I turned around. No one's there. I leaned myself unto a tree. I closed my eyes to feel the sound of nature. So caressing. So cold. "nandito ka lang pala.." it was melvin. He's all over wet. "tae ka, bat nagpapaulan ka? " I was about to give him the umbrella nang bigla niyang hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. He cornered me. "ano ba nangyayari sayo tyna? ano ba ginawa ko?" naman. I want to cry. But I can't. It will just make me look like a coward. "I don't know what you're saying. Release me. Dapat kasama mo yang Ria mo ngayon, hindi ako." I heard him chuckled. "Si ria ba?" "oo.." tumingin ako sa ibang direction. But it didn't help. Our eyes eventually met. He hugged me so tight. So warm. I felt secured. I was totally speechless. I hugged him back. Yeah, I was crying. The happiness suddenly hid the pain in my heart. He touched my pocket, but I didn't bother to look at it. I don't want this dream to last. I felt his very warm breath. His lips to my ear. He whispered something.. "you're the one I want to chase.. just tell me when.. I'll wait.. I'll be patient.." that phrase stunned me for a moment . I felt like- my heart was suddenly locked by a millions of chains. I just remained speechless. He touched my hand and held it as tight as he can. I didn't do any action para kontrahin ang ginagawa niya. I'm totally blank. oh, I'm happy. "please do excuse me..but i think i've already fell tyna .." he said na putol putol pa ang pagkasabi, sabay shook. "i-i.." i looked at him. he touched my lips, i froze. "shh.. i know. " he smiled at me. and yeah, i returned his smile. i guess this is it. "o ano, hatid na kita? basang basa na tayo oh. " "haha sure. " I can say na yun, masaya siya. parang walang nangyari. kami na ba? ai ewan. I'm sure mom will kill me pag nalaman niya to. He started holding my hand simula nung umalis kami sa place na yun. "o nga pala tyna," we continued walking. "o bakit?" "k-kasi ano eh.. " kamot ulo naman si pogi. "ano??" "t-tayo na? " I smiled at him. "thanks.." he put his arm around my waist and we started walking in the very wet road. At ayun, hinatid nga niya ako. I reminded him na keep his mouth shut. basta ako nalang ang magsasalita. after that, i gave him my last words for the night.. "i love you nhie.." and there, umalis na siya. [hr] The next day was like the other day. I went to the room and saw the smiles of my deary classmates. And i smiled at them. I sat down, so as Melvin. gaya ng sabi ko kahapon, wala pang nakakaalam nito. I saw geli walking towards us. "hi tynnaa.. ^^" she smiled at me. "hello. " i smiled. she suddenly glanced at [i]our[/i] hands. uh-oh. "hmmm.. anu yan? " "h-ha?? ang alin?? " tinusok niya yung tyan ko ouch. "don't tell me kayo na.." I looked at the other way and chuckled a lil' bit. "oo gel. kami nga. " melvin grinned. "ohh?! ang bilis naman?! two months kayo di nag-uusap tapos ganun?! kayo na?!!" she ran palabas. sus, parang ewan talaga yung babaeng yun. At ayun, we went na sa covered court para mag flag ceremony. blah blah blah. and so on. taz narinig ko nalang si miss chairman saying, "congratulations for the new couple. " and what the hell. I looked at my nhie na talagang gulat na gulat, pero siya? sus, nginitian lang ako. The crowd kept on asking kung sino yun. pero, i guess di naman kami ni nhie yun. Miss chairman just smiled at me nung nagkasabay kami sa corridor. lol. and everything went smooth and very easy. [i]After three and a half months..[/i] it's so good to know na eto, going strong naman kahit papano, kahit may konting alitan. The next day I arrived at school, I saw a big tarpaulin saying, "mr. allivares' three-day game. we need your full support" and blah blah. I stared him. I mean, yung pic niya sa tarpaulin. I gave a big sigh at nasabing, "thank you lord, for giving me such a wonderful blessing.. like this.. " nalungkot na rin ako. three days nga. three days siyang wala. Then I continued walking. I saw melvin with his barkada and i was surprised, knowing that he did come back. No, partly surprised. He made it back, though. I tried to look away from him. But it didn't help at all. Our eyes suddenly met. He smiled at me, expecting that I will return it, but I didn't. [i][quote]He's name is Lance. My best friend since grade school. Well, I admit, i was about to fall in love with him, but, thank god hindi natuloy. He said goodbye when we stepped the high school department. I was crying so hard. And my goodbyes for him aren't like 'goodbyes' at all. Binigyan ko siya ng super duper sakit na sabunot. For a remembrance, I think. hehe. [/quote] [/i] "hi nhie.." Melvin greeted. I nodded and smiled. he placed his arm around my shoulders and looked at his friends. "Ralph, Vin, Bry, Lance.." he grinned. and I shook my head. "my girlfriend. " I smiled at them. and of course, lance. I didn't get the chance to talk to him, because I've been with Melvin all day long. Finally, the day he'd been waiting had come. His game. His day. His life. I wished him good luck and there, he flew. I finally saw the black car disappearing in my sight. "good boyfriend, eh?" the voice was familiar. As if i was still in my elementary days. I turned around. "mh-mh. thanks lance. about you? is there any girl that.. you know.. " I pinched him. We started to walk. "oh, yeah.. but.." he shook he's head. I saw him frown. "but what?" i turned my head downward to see his face. "she's taken.." then he stood straight and smiled awkwardly. "oh.. that's.. well. there are a lot you know. i know you'll find someone.. " now i'm talkative, and i can't control it. I miss this chats, most of all this boy. "i hope. err.." silence came. "hmm?" I opened a topic. this kills me, "you're quite silly. di ko akalaing gagawin mo talaga yun, i thought you were just jok-" "no i'm not." he walked faster. Ang layo ng tingin niya. we sat down. "debated from my mother rhae-rhae. i want to get what i want. " "i don't get it. haha. never mind." "you don't need to absorb it or what so ever." he rolled his eyes. and I laughed. "i'll go ahead. See ya" And I flew back to the room. Days passed. And i was dead. I missed him so much. I wonder what he's doing right now. I received nothing. Neither text messages nor E-mails. Thank god Lance was here, covering the sadness in my heart, cheering me up or something like that. We went to malls, carnivals, disco's, and he showed me the most beautiful place he last stepped on here in Philippines. It was good. Stars. My cellphone beeped. I hope it's him. I hope. "tyna, not too late, kay?? take care,i love you. -mom" I sighed and rest myself. "why? melvin?" "no. it's just mom." I looked at the floor. thinking something. "oh.." he said in a very low tone.. "are you tired?" he looked at me. and yeah, i can't lie now. I'm really tired. "yeah.." "no, i mean.. [i]your heart[/i].." he emphasized every word, saying it very slow.. "huh? what?? my.. heart?? " I looked at him with confusion. he sighed. "nah.. let's just go home.. " he smiled at me. But i can see in his eyes that he's sad. I wonder what's that phrase all about. I didn't think about it anyway, i just want to go home. The next day followed. After waiting for such a very long time, i think centuries, he came back. I saw him walking in the hallway. Everyone was there. And i want to be there, you know. I want to hug him. But it seems to be that I can't. men, i thought this would be easy. it's not! "crap.." i whispered myself, shaking my head from left to right. "crap.." the voice followed, echo? lol. again. lance. he's always there. and i always thank him for being there. "ba-kit u-ma-lis ca do-on? an-do-on ca na eh." wow men, i can say he's really fluent in english. di na niya masabi ng maayos yung words. putol putol pa. "i don't know. Crowded." I toyed my ID lace and went to the canteen to buy a drink. "Soda please.." I gave my 100 peso bill to Ate Chang. "two please.. di-to na-lang.." He grabbed my money and gave it back to me. I just grinned. "oh, how's the singing tyni?" "abandoned. I think." we both laughed. and it was true. I've already abandoned singing. sayang? no. it's my choice. "that's bad. but well, none of my business. i'll go now. we'll get late.." He rose up and started walking. I felt alone. That's why I followed him and grabbed his hand, trying to stop him. "stay.." I looked at him. And I saw Melvin in the corner of my eye. He wasn't paying attention at me, though. I let go of my hand. *sigh* "no, we'll be late tyni. let me hold your hand na-lang. " he smiled at me and offered his hand. "okay.. " We went back to the room. I sat down. I saw a note. [quote]From nhie.. Please open.. [/quote] And yeah, I opened it. I'm quite upset you know. [quote]Let's talk later, after dismissal.. kay? I'll wait. [/quote] I wonder why he's not here. I asked my classmates. He's in the faculty. they're having a party.. yeah.. a party without me. I was about to throw the paper when I saw a very ugly penmanship at the lower portion of the paper.. [i]Lance's getting on my nerves nhie.. Keep a distance please. Painful. [/i]

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