[align=center] Hope you'll read this and give comments. Thanks, ~ Xstel Introduction: My Break Up Letter starts here: Dear Jessie; When I met you it was just an accident... I didn't plan to go out with a stranger. But it went that way. Maybe this is my karma cause at first my intention was only use you to make my friend jealous and that's Kyle... Maybe you'll just laugh at me now. I didn't really plan to love you anyway. But I did. I fell unexpectedly. It sucks cause I know every thing about your situation but still my heart doesnt seem to mind about it. I still let my heart decide. And because of that I finally realized that I'm not that clever... that I am so stupid. Probably... yes, I am a fool. It was the happiest night I've ever had when we argued and you shouted at me out of anger that you loved me but you cant feel that I loved you.. I was stunned to hear that. Though I still had some doubts, it seemed that I never really cared at all. I told you I loved you too. And it was the start. I know it will take a while before I will be over you... It will take so much time for me to forget our late night conversations, the places we've been together, the stories we've shared, our love for music.. your face, your voice.. the sound of your laughter that seems to be so sad. I will miss your eyes, and the way you look at me. The way they tease me. I am about to cry now... I will miss the way you pull me near you, the way you lean your head on my shoulder... The way you kiss me. The way you squeeze my hand each time you held them. Each time you pinch me. I will miss every little things about you.. your earings, your tight pants... your jacket. Your silly friends. Your son.... But I dont like how I am feeling now.. I never felt so humiliated in my life not until now. Didn't you know how much pain you cause me each time you go away without telling why? Whenever you seem to forget me? Each time you keep me waiting on the line like. I'm like hanging on a thread, and when the wind blows, I am sure that in no time I will surely fall to the ground. And I hate it when you tell me you didn't forget about me cause I don't believe it. I hate it cause each time I decided to surrender you will always come and tell me that every thing is alright. I am not alright being like this forever. I hate it each time I see "her" cause it felt like I stole you from her. I know I didn't. I always try to convince myself that I didn't, but it still feels the same. It makes me wanna cry. But sometimes my tears run dry. I dont know how to contain my feelings anymore. I guess this time its going to be the last. I am so inlove with you, but you dont give no reason... It feels like too much disrespect. I want to stop this battle inside my head... I dont wanna feel like killing myself again. It took me a lot to write this thing. I hope I could break with you on Saturday. So long and Good Bye My Love.. Xstel - I really imagined how will be my life without him.. I think everything would be different. and.....[/align]

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