Sorry for the late update! Been busy these past few days. T___T Anyways, My friend made me a new poster. what do you think guys? (and no pm this time. im in a hurry.) pms will be back next update. ;') ----<3 [font="Impact"][size=6][color=#A0522D]Chapter Eighteen[/color][/size][/font] [spoiler]Three weeks had went by in the blink of an eye... I didn't ask Eun Young where he was headed to that night or what he did... I didn't ask because I honestly didn't want to know... Some things are better hidden...right? I found myself being able to forget the awkward date that night... "Noona!" I heard Jae Yung shouting for me as he entered the house. "What?" I shouted from the room. "Come quick! I think Eun Young hyung is about to get kicked out of his house again!" I dashed down the stairs once I heard what Jae Yung said. "What?! Why?" I asked as I looked at a panting Jae Yung. "I don't know! They're fighting again." Jae Yung started to pull me out of the house and towards Eun Young's house. The front door of the house was open so Jae Yung and I managed to hear everything that was going on in the house. "I don't effin' care about you. Just get out. How the hell are you going to tell Chailleen all this?" Sang Il oppa shouted. What? Tell me what? "Hyung, how can you just expect me to throw Ah Ri aside? And what about Gyu Ri? He's just a child!" I could hear Eun Young's voice. Ah Ri? ...she was that girl... His first love... The girl we met at the mall... I felt my heart stop and I couldn't breathe... I felt my head spinning a little as I leaned against the frame of the door for support. "That's not your fvcking kid." Sang Il oppa spat out bitterly. "Does Chailleen even know the shit that you're doing?!" "She doesn't need to know." Eun Young said softly. "WHAT THE FVCK DO YOU MEAN SHE DOESN'T NEED TO KNOW?!" "What she doesn't know won't hurt her." "You don't think if she ever found out why you were working that she'd let it go so easily? What? What she doesn't know won't hurt her?" Sang Il oppa let out a bitter chuckle. "There's no point in telling her. She wouldn't understand why." "Of course she wouldn't understand why! No one can understand why you do what you do! Who can EVER understand the fact that you're working only to support your ex girlfriend and her illegitimate child." I choked on what Sang Il oppa had said. "What are you talking about?" I finally walked through the door. Eun Young stiffened when he saw me but couldn't look my way. "...Chaii Shin-ah..." Sang Il oppa looked awkward as he stood there looking back and forth between Eun Young and I. But for some reason I couldn't tear my eyes away from Eun Young. "I'm asking you. What were you talking about?" My voice was now shaking. It wasn't because I was about to burst out in tears...it was because I felt so hurt and angry. "Let's talk about this outside." Eun Young said as he tried to pull me out with him. "NO. Let's talk about this here...and right now." I snapped as I threw his grip off me. Sang Il and Jae Yung both went out of the house quietly. For that, I was thankful because things were going to get real ugly in here. "You have 10 minutes to explain this. From the beginning to the end. Or this is really over." I spat out bitterly as I glared at him. Panic shot through his face, "Chaii shin-ah...don't say that." "10 minutes." I really hated the kind of girl I was becoming right now... "I don't know where to start..." Eun Young's words trailed off as he looked at me. "Don't give me that bullshit" I said angrily as I looked at him. He had a frown on his forehead. "Listen...I was planning on telling you just...not now..." Eun Young explained. "What Sang Il oppa said...was that all true?" "....please just let me explain...." "It's a yes or not question, Park Eun Young." "Yes..." "Hah...I think...that's all I needed to know..." A pang of pain shot through my heart but for some reason...I didn't cry. The pain was unbearable but not a single tear fell out of my eyes. As I turned to leave, he stopped me. "It's not what you're thinking at all..." He said softly as he pulled me into his arms. "It doesn't matter what I think anymore...because I knew something felt wrong...I knew something was wrong..." I whispered as I pushed him away. "I didn't think that it was important to tell you." "YOU DIDN'T THINK IT WAS IMPORTANT TO TELL ME THAT YOU'RE WORKING ONLY TO SUPPORT YOUR EX AND HER KID?!" I yelled. Eun Young sighed and backed down. "We're fvcking done. You hear me? We're done." I managed to say those words without falling apart completely. As I ran home, I kept asking God why he kept doing this to me? Why was I the only one that was getting hurt out of all this? And the tears that I've tried so hard to hold back...were now falling... "SHIN CHAILLEEN!" I heard Eun Young shouting. But I ran even faster instead... But of course because I was a fool...I managed to get my foot stuck in a pothole and fell face first instead... I heard foot steps coming closer and closer but tears had blurred my vision... I felt a strong pair of arms lifting me up and dusting me off. "You didn't wait for me to explain..." His voice that I loved so much...I wanted to erase it from my mind... "....Ah Ri cheated on me with my hyung's best friend...and at that time...I couldn't just leave her...she was disowned by her parents because she got pregnant at a young age. So I helped her out a little..." He continued. "Are you stupid?" I wiped my tears away. "WHAT KIND OF FVCKING IDIOT DOES THAT?! YOU GOT CHEATED ON AND YOU'RE SUPPORTING HER?!" I shouted loudly. Eun Young just avoided my eyes. "....how can I just push her away?" Eun Young frowned as he looked down at the ground. "Do you still love her? Is that why you've been sneaking around behind my back?" I asked. "What? No. I haven't been sneaking around." Eun Young finally looked at me. Liar. "Liar." "How am I lying to you?!" "How can you stand there and lie to me right in the face. How can I trust you after you've kept something SO important from me? How can I look at you after this?" Biting my lips, I finally said. " Don't call me. Don't come around my house. Don't come looking for me." "It's your birthday next week..." He said softly. "Perfect timing. Thank God I found out about this today...or I'd be spending my birthday with a fvcking liar." "Shin Chailleen." "Don't you ever call my name. As far as I know...the name Park Eun Young...I want to erase it." I spat out bitterly before walking out on him. - - A week ago... I found out everything that my boyfriend had been keeping a secret from me... I found out that he only worked because he was supporting his ex-girlfriend and her kid... Today... I realized it was my birthday... I realized that I was spending it without him... After that day...he never came looking for me... I was wasting my birthday away by writing an essay to keep my mind off things... "Noona..." Jae Yung said softly. I didn't move an inch. "Happy birthday, noona." Jae Yung said softly. "Thanks." I muttered as I continued to type out my essay. "Noona...hyung...was just helping that girl out...he wasn't cheating on you." Some how...Jae Yung's comments comforted me but I still couldn't bring myself to forgive Eun Young for not telling me and sneaking around. "...doesn't matter...can you leave me alone for a while please?" I said softly as I stopped typing. Jae Yung nodded and left the room. Sighing, I looked at the half-filled screen infront of me. How the hell was I going to finish this essay tonight?! This was supposed to be done WEEKS ago...but I was with Eun Young the week before last... Letting out a small groan, I began to slam my head lightly against the study table. And for a short while...I laid my head on the wood table... I think I've cried too many times to cry again now... I think I've been shattered to the point where pain was slowly becoming numb... I think I've stopped believing in love... Park Eun Young... Even though tears aren't falling from my eyes right now... I think you really broke me... The pieces that Tae Jun left of me...that you took your time picking up...and putting back together... They're all shattered now... This time...you really broke me... My heart....hurts....and the pain won't stop coming... I finally gave in to my sleepiness and allowed myself to shut my eyes for just 5 minutes... My eyes fluttered open once I realized I was on something soft...I sat up quickly... How did I end up on the bed?! I quickly checked the time and it said 8:00AM. "Crap!" I swore under my breath as I quickly stumbled out of bed. I didn't even finish my essay! But something caught my eye as I headed towards my study table... There was a square box...and beside it was another bigger box... Ignoring it for a quick second, I took my laptop off screen saver. But the content staring back at me...was complete... Below the completed essay there was a note... 'Happy Birthday, Saint Mary.' My heart stopped and I looked down at the two boxes that were beside me on the desk. Park Eun Young was here...did he...finish my essay? With shaky hands...I picked up the small box first... And when I opened it...I couldn't breathe at all... [i]"Was there anything in paticular that you wanted?" Yoon Sung asked. "Oh...I don't know..." Of course I don't freaking know...how am I supposed to tell my boyfriend what I wanted for my birthday if he was going to be CHEAP about DINNER. "I've always wanted a Toy Watch." I finally said. I knew it was a pretty expensive watch and I said it only because I wanted to see the expression on his face. What I wanted to say was...I didn't need a birthday present...I only wished that he would spend it with me. Only...his expression wasn't one of horror...it seemed as if he were thinking but he quickly nodded and smiled at me.[/i] He got me my toy watch... Although I tried hard to fight back tears...what I saw next in the bigger box made my resistance useless... I saw a heart shaped cake...but on the cake...I saw someone staring back at me... That someone was Saint Mary. Tears spilled out as I stood there staring at the cake... "Saint Mary..." I whispered. Haha...that was the nickname that I'd missed so much... A smile spread across my face as I wiped the tears away. Quickly pulling myself together, I showered and got changed for school. I placed the watch in a drawer and the cake in the fridge and left with the essay that eun young did. Once I got to school, I headed to my locker and saw Bobo standing there. "Chaii Shin-ah...I think someone tried to open your locker..." Bobo said as he walked up towards me. "What?! Well...I only have my textbook and some tampons in there so it doesn't matter." I was about to open the locker when Bobo shrieked. "Ew gross! Like what the hell?! TAMPONS?!" He let out a disgusted sigh as he pretended to puke. Opening the locker...I saw a bunch of stuff that was placed in there... A glass bottle of starbucks coffee... A box of strawberry pocky stick's... And a doll...with a similar haircut that looked a lot like... ...Saint Mary... Picking up the glass bottled coffee, there was a yellow sticky note. 'You probably need some energy from sleeping late all the time.' Picking up the box of strawberry pocky stick's, there was a pink sticky note. 'Your favorite.' Picking up the ugly looking 'Saint Mary' doll. there was a piece of paper tucked in her pants... Gee...what an inappropriate place to stick a note in. 'Song Ah Ri...she was my first love...I helped her because she was a friend to me and not because I had feelings for her or that I still loved her.' "Yo. One more fell out." Bobo bent over and passed me the next note. 'I' What the fvck? Why was there only one word on it? It's obvious that this was all eun young's doing...but he should just give up... Shoving everything back into the locker. Bobo and I headed to class.[/spoiler]