[b]October 11[/b] Time flies by so faast. natapos na ang first semester and now killing second semester but no need to worry. full of activities and second semester namen. so' we're more on outside activities and less lectures and stuff. Since the start of second semester. di kami madalas nagkikita ni chen. It's been 2 weeks!. can you imagine that? It feels like it's gonna be a LDR in the making! Hindi ko rin siya mahagilap sa school. I'm always at the faculty kasi that's the meeting place namin. but never siya nagpakita. Kapag napunta ako sa bahay. WALA? whut the hell. I was sitting alone sa back ng school the so-called isolated place. I feel so alone this time. I dunno. i even texted chen and he didn't reply. Tried to call him tapos di naman niya sinasagot. is it about brigette? did he fall for her na kahit nasa relationship pa siya. pinabayaan na niya ako. ? "Hey miss! been watching you.. why so sad?" a voice from a far. when i looked. exchange student Ray from Korea. well he's half Filipino half korean. I think 2 months siya dito. I heard from the faculty. then lumapit siya saken. "anong problema? i'm bothered. i don't want to see someone specially girl na malungkot." "banat agad ah. so sudden." i just smiled "and tambayan mo na agad toh. good thing you know how to speak tagalog." i said so much. "ang daldal ah?" he laughed then umupo sa tabi ko. "hindi naman. i just want to have someone to talk to even nonsense na. i'm on the peak of this freaking relationship and.." and i just feel like crying.. "you can cry i won't mind.." he smiled. and after he said that i cried. so hard. i just don't know what to do. at ano ba ang ginawa ko?! "dapat hindi mo pinipilit sarili mo na maging matapang. well in some circumstances pwede yan but when it comes to stuff like these. it's wrong." "i just don't know what to do." i wipe my tears and looked at him "anu bang magandang gawin after mo na magawa ang lahat?" "i don't know. i guess it's about time na dapat siya naman ang gumawa ng mga bagay na ginawa mo." "eh itext nga ako ng kahit tuldok wala. kamusta na kaya..." "maayos din yan. siguro may problem siya.." "huh? and kung meron man ba't hindi niya sabihin saken?" "siguro may mga bagay na hindi mo na kelangan malaman?" "whut the hell? if that's the case then baket nauso pa ang commitment if you're not willing to share ups and downs with someone!!!" "i'm sorry ella key? like you i don't know." then suddenly sad face siya. "what's wrong? i'm sorry. it's just that.. argh.." "please smile." whut the hell? "huh? why?" "just smile." he said. then i gave him my smile. "graaabe. your so beautiful indeed!" then tumayo na siya while walking away he said "hindi lang sa kanya umiikot mundo mo.. you'll see. so just smile key?" awww. sweet. he has his point but still chen. i love him so much this time and i can't contact him. [b]THAT AFTERNOON[/b] ATLAST! he appeared. nasa canteen ako and dumeretso siya saken. umupo sa tabi ko. i just looked at him and look the other way. "i'm sorry for being like this.." he said then wala pa rin akong imik. "ella. speak up." he said. wala naman ako masabi. i want to cry pero wag na. "ella?" then hinarap niya ako sa kanya. "ano? tititigan mo na lang ako?" "anong nangyari?" i asked "si brigette, sorry. hindi ko nasabi. nagrequest kasi si tita na samahan ko siya sa australia para makausap ung sanang magiging 'rents-in-law. it's so sudden." "whut the hell?!!!!" i stood. "excuse me." "where are you going?" he asked. "away from you."i just looked at him then tumabi siya para makadaan ako. pero bago ako makaalis hinigit niya balikat ko. "let me go. kung gusto mo on your own. then don't bother to look for me. girlfriend mo lang naman ako and i don't have the right to know your whereabouts right?" then i release myself from him. how could he? he went to australia without telling me? Ako. luka na ako kakakontak sa kanya and stuff!! then ayon lang pala? nagpunta ng australia?! darn! i'm not unfair when it comes to brigette diba? pero baket saken? hindi naman ako susunod kung malaman ko!! i hate chen this time. i soo hate him! [b]THREE DAYS[/b] after maganap ung canteen incident. palagi kami magkasama but never ko siya kinausap. nauuna na din ako umuwi para maiwasan ang paghatid niya saken. i want to break up with him but can't find reason why. or maybe. wala pa. pero i have this feeling na may mangyayari. ayoko lang pangunahan. [align=center] [b]Last October © DamselinDistress story for summer 2010[/b][/align]