[quote=oOpunkrockeranimeOo;#3598303;1274648306]I have a problem. Not a love problem, but just a problem.
I have a hard time controlling my anger. Sometimes, I CAN control it to the point when I'm just indifferent to the situation. But..I've also been having a hard time controlling it. It confuses me and aggravates me.
Sometimes, when I'm angry, I just have the sudden urge to HURT somebody, physically. It's hard. I break pens/pencils, rip notebook/book pages out, punch on tables, kick chairs...etc. And sometimes, I'm just "I don't f*cking care."
I think this applies to my mood swings, but I'm not sure.
And my mother and some of my friends have been saying that I have this intense glint on my eyes when I'm angry. The glint, she says, scares people. I scolded my sister yesterday because she lost my bookmark piece. My sister, my mom says, was just so afraid, that she stayed in my mom's room.
This surprised me. I am SURE my mom has a worse temper than I do, and I mean WORSE temper. She goes to the point of throwing EVERYTHING around/yelling profanities etc., and my sister just stares in horror when she does this.
However, when I scolded her yesterday, I KNOW FOR SURE, I controlled my anger better than my mom. But my sister was just AFRAID, locking herself in my parents' room.
And when something pissed me off just the other day, I was such in a horrible mood. My classmates were all "Hey, Jed I --" and I shot them a look and harshly said "What?" They began apologizing all of the sudden. I'm not sure if my eyes had this "intense glint" or something...But I'm pretty sure I did, since I said my "What?" pretty normally. (Yes, I say my "What's" harshly sometimes.)
I'm just...I don't know.[/quote]
Hey there, mind if I'll ask you a question? Uhm, are your friends already know this problem? So that, they will understand the way you treat things or person. Well, the way you handle your mood is too rough for the others. They might be scared for the whole time because of your actions or just your intense glint from your eye. Sometimes we tend to have an action that makes the other people have a wrong interpretation with it; showing your intense glint and with the word saying "WHAT?" means to say you're angry towards them -- and that is the common interpretation with those moves
You should tell some of your friends that sometimes you just tend to say "WHAT?" in a harsh way but the real meaning of it is YOU'RE NOT THAT ANGRY AT ALL.
And about handling your mood, you should find an alternative ways to avoid giving an intense glint to your sister (that would make your sister run off to her bedroom and lock it up) and also breaking SOME THINGS is too dangerous. Also, you should not show off your anger where your little sister is there, she might not treat you well if she's getting old or so.
Just deal all things in a calm way, not so rough.