[b]FINAL CHAPTER: [i]The End[/i][/b] That morning, it's as if i was numb. Like my heart was frozen. As emo as it may sound, that's exactly how i felt. It's like a feeling of gratitude exploded in my heart, and yet a feeling of sadness was trying to kill it. We were on our way to manila. I didn't mind my phone at all. I slept so late last night that i was asleep almost the whole way. I woke up when we were at NLEX. I wanted to yawm, but it was as if my face froze into a frown. I remember that night, I remembered everything. Life went by, days went by... A week after, I had a week off. I decided to go back home, of course. Keith heard the news and asked if we could go out. Still in love with him, of course i agreed. There he was, standing righ in front of me. As if time had stoped, as if my heart had stoped beating. Golly, haven't felt like this since prom! It was insane, i know. It was pathetic, i'm sure. "Get over it" i told myself over and over. I guess, first love's really don't die? Or i guess they do, but they just really become a huge part of your life. "Keith!" i yelled out with a smile up to the skies. "Summer!" he yelled right back I smiled at him, glared at our color combination ) I remember telling him about my favorite color, and him telling me his. I was wearing his favorite color, he was wearing mine. We laughed about that We walked around, ate, watched a movie, went to the amusement place, stuff like that. Funny thing was, so many of our ex-schoolmates happened to be at SM. Since most of them "knew" about "us", well, most of them started texting in the middle of our date, err, i mean get together We both laughed about it. I laughed, but deep inside, I was praying to God. It felt good that people were making gossip. HAHA YEAH IT DID. I mean, hello? Gusto ko naman kasi eh, so no harm hahahaha. "I can't believe we're watching this." He laughed. He forced me to watch some filipino movie. Name censored. Hahahaha. We arrived at about the middle of it, so we basically laughed at how bad the acting was, specially the props, and how silly the costumes looked. It was a funny feeling Then he said "Sayang" i asked why. He replied "Wala lang. Parang, ganito pala. Hehehe. Lam mo na.." and i remained quiet. He was right. Sayang. Ganito pala. Ang saya pala talaga niyang kasama. Sayang yung mga dating chance na magkaganito kami. DARN YOU. WHY MUST YOU BRING IT UP!? At around 7, my friends we're calling me up. I swore i'd speand my last night with them. I told him i had to go, and that we'd see each other anyway and that he didn't have to miss me we still joked like that. Hahaha. Keith: Alam mo................................................. [blahblahblah all i could hear was blahblahblahblah! he talked about something, i forgot what. i was nodding, pretending i was listening when in fact, i had absolutely no clue on what he was talking about. i was busy imagining a scene from Hannah Montana, where Jake and Miley finally "confessed" their feelings about each other. They were teasing each other "No! You like me!" the other one would go "You like me!" and they went over and over and over until Jake kissed Miley. And well we all know what happens. And of course, we all know what i'm imagining] Keith: You get me? Summer: Totally. You take care ok? Keith: Uhhh? Ok. But wait, could you help me go to baggage counter. Gotta grab something. Summer: Hmm. Ok. WHATDA?? Never in my life had i seen such a gigantic, stuffed pig. It stared right at me. Of course i didn't jump to conclusions, i mean why would i. But then he said "Hey, meet your new bestfriend, Tiny" and gave me a crooked smile. OH MY GOSH There it was, standing righ in front of me. As if time had stoped, as if my heart had stoped beating. Golly, haven't felt like this since this morning! It was insane, i know. It was pathetic, i'm sure. "Believe it!" i told myself over and over. I guess, i was just amazed at the fact of the HUGE thoughtfullness? Or i guess i was just REALLY confused. I ws speachless. He laughed and handed Tiny over. I couldn't hold him so he took him right back and laughed at me. He walked away first, looked over his shoulder, and "made senyas" to me to come on. Keith brought me and Tiny home. It was a weird feeling. For the first time today, we experienced and awkward silence moment. I was jsut recalling the insane things that had happened today. It was fun. I was happy.. I hope he IS too. When we got infront of the gate, there was nothing else to do but say our goodbye's. I saw the girl peeking through my window since my room was facing the gate. Nothing happened. We hugged. His gu was so pure and tight, i really felt it. I felt like crying but i thought "i haven't lost him yet." I got out of the car, he said "Summer, wait!" i turned around with so much hope that he'd tell me to not let go. But then he just said "Take care ok?" in disappointment i just nodded, grined and said "You too Keith.. You too." and he drove away. Not all stories have happy endings. Mine sure didn't. I don't know for sure, but today, i still think of this "could have been". That day i experienced him. I really realized how much i missed. How much i hated myself for not speaking up, caring too much about being humiliated. Don't let something great slip out of your hands. Someone else my get it, and you might lose it forever. All i can say for sure, even if Keith never became mine, he really change it. Like, BIG TIME. And i thank him. I felt for the first time LOVE, even if it wasn't from someone who was mine. Thank you Keith... [b]"[/b][i]Goodbye my almost lover Goodbye my hopeless dream I'm trying not to think about you Can't you just let me be? So long my luckless romance My back is turned on you I should have known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do[/i][b]"[/b] [b]T H E E N D[/b]

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