[b]CHAPTER FIVE[/b] Naglalakad kami ni Blake sa hallway. That was after that stupid scene I made. Nung malapit na kami sa room, he stopped walking and faced me. "So.. Mischa, bakit ka nga ba umiiyak kanina?" OMG. This is the part that I hated the most - when people ask me about my feelings. It's disgusting. I looked down. "K-kase, Blake.." Before I could finish the sentence, a tear fell. I tried to stop it, I swear! But anyway, ano pa nga bang magagawa ko? "H-hey.." he said and moved toward me so he can wipe the tears. I stopped his hand. So for some seconds there, we were holding hands and looking straight at each others' eyes. Pero nauna na akong nagbawi ng tingin. At kamay, of course. "Masyadong mababaw. Baka nga pagtawanan mo lang ako eh." Kinuha ko yung panyo ko and started wiping my own tears. "I'd never do that, alam mo yun." I looked him in the eye and said, "Kase, Blake.. N-nakalimutan kong may test pala kami ngayon sa Physics. At di ako nakapagreview." Ok, that was lame. But so what? Of course I couldn't tell him that I was crying because he's over me, DUH! He looked at me like he was about to laugh, but he didn't. "Mish.. Wala naman si Ma'am Bennett ngayon. May sakit siya kaya ok lang na hindi ka nakapagreview." he smiled. Oh. shut up, Blake! That same smile made me fall for you so shut upppppp! Hindi ko na alam yung sasabihin ko. Hindi ko din alam anung pumasok sa utak ko but then, suddenly, I hugged him. Wala namang tao nun eh. Siguradong nasa gym sila dahil nagpapractice ngayon ang varsity para sa nalalapit na game. Varsity nga pala si Blake, eh ba't siya nandito? Uhh, whatever. It felt so good, really. But then, I realized that it was time to set him free and move on. By the time I realized that thought, I let him go and walked away. [b]BLAKE'S POV[/b] Alam kong she lied. Alam kong may ibang dahilan ang mga luhang 'yon. And they're certainly not because of a pop quiz. I've seen her cry dahil sa low scores but not like this. There was something in her eye that I wanted to understand. But I guess I wasn't capable to do that. Pinanood ko siya habang palayo siya nang palayo. Hanggang sa hindi ko na siya makita. Then I smiled and headed for the gym. [hr] "Where the hell have you been? Kanina ka pa hinahanap ni Coach! Gusto mo bang malagot na naman?" That was Drake, my boy bestfriend. "Chill, dude. Tara, game na." Kumuha ako ng isang bola and then sh-in-oot ko. And na-shoot naman. Syempre, dapat lang. Kundi mawawalan ng kwenta pagiging star player ko. Then I heard a clapping. I turned around to see who it was. "I didn't know you played hoops." kumuha siya ng bola at sh-in-oot iyon, effortlessly excellent. "I do. too." she smiled. "What are you doing here, Blair?" I asked her. "Just visiting. Wala kasi akong magawa sa bahay. Tapos na ba ang classes mo? Can you tour me around the metro?" Her eyes were shimmering. She smiled in anticipation. "You see, Blair, nagpapractice pa kasi kami." "It's okay, I can wait." she smiled again. And it seemed that she had no plans on dropping the subject. "Martinez! Kanina pa kita hinahanap!" I heard Coach. And mukhang hindi masyadong maganda ang timpla niya ngayon. "Sige ha.." I smiled awkwardly to Blair. I was about to turn around, but then.. "Wait." she said and kissed me on the cheek. I was stunned. "Just something to cheer you up." she smiled and walked to the bleachers. "Martinez!" Nang bumalik ako sa earth, agad akong tumakbo papunta kay Coach. Sandamakmak na sermon ang inabot ko kay Coach. Pero wala dun ang isip ko. Once in a while, I took a glimpse kung nasa'n si Blair. And sa bawat pagtingin ko sa kanya, she just smiled with so much life. Which made me more confused. Naalala ko si Mischa. I remembered the look in her eyes when she cried. And then I remembered Blair's smiles. And then I wondered.. [i]Maybe I should give it a try.[/i] [hr] After ng practice, I showered and then dumiretso ako kay Blair. "Sorry for keeping you waiting." I said as she stood up. "It's okay. Ikaw pala ang star player?" I smiled awkwardly. "Uh, y-yeah." "That's so cool." she chuckled. "So.. let's go?" I held out my hand. She smiled and took my hand. "Let's go." [b]MISCHA'S POV[/b] "Hello?" I answered my phone. Nasa room pa ako eh. Naglilinis. Nag-aayos ng mga gamit-gamit. Ewan ko ba't ko yun ginagawa. Naghahanap lang ng pagkaka-busy-han. "Mish, asan ka?" That was Tyler nga pala. CHecking up on me, I guess. "Sa room pa, baket?" "Ba't di ka pa umuuwi?" "Naglilinis pa ako, baket ba?" "Susunduin kita diyan. Wag kang aalis. Bye." "Hin-" he hung up on me. [i]Nice.[/i] Nilapag ko sa teacher's table yung phone ko. Then umupo ako dun sa table. Look, I know it's a table pero walang basagan ng trip, ok? At habang pinagmamasdan ko yung room, something flashed on my mind. [i]"Bastusan na lang o?" I said to Blake. E paano ba naman, nagwawalis ako ng room tapos pumasok siya with his shoes uber dumi. Papansin talaga 'to. "Aba, ang prinsesa, naglillinis." she went to me and held my waist. "Nasabi ko na bang hindi mo bagay?" he kissed me sa forehead. "Oh, shut up. Hindi naman ako maglilinis dito kundi dahil sa'yo." I pushed him away. "Bakit? anung ginawa ko?" he said playing innocent. I looked at him as if I wanted to throw him out of the room with my bare hands. "Okay, chill, Mish. Ginawa ko lang yun para naman masarili kita after school." he reasoned out. "Huwag mo nga akong idaan sa mga paganyan-ganyan mo." E pano ba naman? Kinalatan niya nang bonggang-bongga yung room tapos sinulat sa board, "I'm home, Mischa!". Kaya naman napagalitan ako sa adviser namin at pinalinis niya sa akin yung buong room. "It's true, believe me, Mish." "Whatever." I said and continued sweeping the floor. "I missed you." Kagagaling lang kasi niya sa Europe. Sinama siya dun ng dad niya for some reason. He hugged me. I gave in. I hugged him back. "I missed you, too."[/i] "Hey, Mish!" Nun ko lang napansin na nakatulala pala ako. Nasa pinto na si Tyler. "Tyler!" I tried to smile. But failed. "Anong problema?" He walked to me with that worried face he always wears everytime he sees me not smiling. Take note, I was just not smiling, just a straight face. But on reflex, I jumped to him and hugged him. I don't know, I guess I was just too glad that he was still there for me. No matter how many times I've rejected him. No matter how much, I know, I hurt him. He's been so patient to me. And he's overqualified for my love, I know. "Hey.. What happened?" he asked worriedly. I broke off the hug and smiled at him. "Nothing. I'm just happy you're here." I guess, oras na para gumising sa katotohanang hindi na babalik si Blake. I guess I just have to live with what's in front of me. To stop looking back and start moving forward. [i]It won't hurt to try. I guess.[/i]