^ I feel you Hanako.. That's hard. I'm sorry to hear that. But maybe you might want to clear that up with him soon. I mean you two sit down and talk about your relationship. I know its scary on what might he say.. but thats one way to find out for sure. If you think about it.. it's hard to control ones feelings. If you start to feel you don't love someone anymore, you can't blame yourself. Sometimes you feel as if you're so bad, and you want to hate yourself for it. But it happens.. Hopefully you can clear it up with your boyfriend. And hopefully you two would still be cool. Goodluck!