I confess, i'll be inactive here at Ftalk. I'm just not worth it these days. I'm worthless. Especially when it's a special person who keeps on giving you the sign that you're worthless. This would be affecting my life and also my studies. Maybe I need time on my own. Just catch me up at Facebook&Twitter, I guess. I'll come back when i'm already okay. I confess, I keep on pushing him to break up with me. I want him to use me to be a good person, so that his next girlfriend won't experience the pain I faced. My friends are telling me i'm doing stupid. It's my own decision, yet I need to accept that anytime, he'll be gone. I confess, I inflicted myself again. This is what I hate. Being so stupid. Ugh. I did this because I want to die, already. Seriously. Early in the morning, at 6am. I said to myself, "Why the hell I'm still alive?" I confess, i'm happy for my bestfriend. Her ex-boyfriend came back to him. Yet, i'm the one who'll be forever alone.