[b]♥ 13.1 ♥[/b] I was startled. Hindi ako makapgsalita, I know about PJ’s feelings, pero nakakagulat ata na tumawag pa siya dahil dito. “I need to tell you something, hindi na kasi kaya ng konsensya ko e.” He uttered. “B-Bakit? Ano bang nagawa mo?” “I… I told Kent a lie.” I gulped. Kinakabahan ako. “What lie?” “I told him… That you were in love with me. Kaya he needs to pursue Chiles immediately, kasi inaantay mo sila, bago maging tayo. Oo, Ches. Pinagseselosan ko talaga si Kent, kaya nasabi ko yun. And I’m sorry. It hurts so much when it feels like… You’re in love with him.” My heart skipped a beat. Oras na ba para sabihin k okay PJ ang totoo. “Cheska, sorry.” I took a sigh. “It’s… Okay. Actually you helped.” I told him. “Kung hindi mo ginawa yun… He will not be happy as he is now.” “Is he really happy… You think?” He asked me. Nagulat ako. “Oo naman… Matagal na niyang gusto si Chiles di ba… Chiles seems to like him now, so everything’s good. Let’s be happy for them.” I muttered. “But isn’t it possible for the feelings to change?” He suddenly replied. “What do you mean?” “Isn’t it possible for Kent to fall in love with you?” I reddened, hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko. I’ve asked that myself before, pero nung dati, yung kakasimula pa lang namin ni Kent as friends… He… He really loves Chiles, at hindi ganun kadaling mawala ang feelings nay un para sakanya. And I don’t want to have false hopes and then get broken again. “That’s impossible, PJ.” “It’s not impossible.” Natigilan ako, kasi sa tono niya he’s like sure of what he was saying. “Totoo. When we were 2nd year high school, his feelings was immovable. Alam ko kasi lagi ko siyang kasama, I knew he hated me, pero hindi niya pinakita kasi sabay na rin kaming lumaki and I know, the bond we had was too much to be gone. Kaya nga napili niyang layuan na lang si Chiles instead of me. Kasi ayaw niyang masira yung samahan namin, and with the fact that I don’t like Chiles, kaya pumayag na rin ako.” I kept still, listening. “Up ‘til the beginning of classes, si Chiles pa rin ang laman ng puso niya… Until we met you. You are too easy to love, kahit wala ka mang ginagawa, your presence kept me warm.” I started trembling, natutuwa ako sa naririnig ko, but I assume, na pag totoo ang mga sinasabi ni PJ, I will end up with one thing: ‘To choose’ “From the day I bumped into you in front of our school, you’ve already captivated me. I tried to be your friend, I tried to be contented with it, but everything didn’t go as it was supposed to.” I held my breath. “…I fell in love with you.” Oh dang. Now I’m really dying. Hindi ko na alam ang sasabihin ko, I’m awfully touched, pero hindi ko rin alam ang gagawin ko. “It was all easy. Pag gising ko isang araw, sayo na ang puso ko.” My heart skipped a beat again. “At hindi malabong ganun din si Kent.” Serious mode. Walang hihinga. “Come on, PJ. He’s inlove with Chiles. We know that clearly.” “Pero halata sakanya… You are not ‘nothing’ to him.” “I… I know that. Pero iba pa rin yung ‘love’ PJ. Iba pa rin yun.” Silence prevailed again. Wala na akong masabi. I’m tensed. “Sorry, Cheska.” “You don’t need to apologize for the lie. Okay lang. Hindi na naman natin kelangang linawin pa yun sakanila.” “Are you sure?” “Y-Yeah. It’s cool.” Mas mabuti na rin ‘to, yung medyo napabilis yung pag alis ni Kent, yung pagpunta niya kay Chiles. Kasi kung papatagalin pa… Baka hindi ko na magawang hayaan pa siyang umalis. I might pull him back and never let go… Then I’ll be selfish. “Sige, gotta go na.” “Sige.” Then I put the phone down. What a convo with PJ. Kinilig ako, nako, feeling ko lalaki na yung ulo ko nito. Napailing ako. Buti na lang hindi ako nahulog sa sinasabi niyang Kent likes me. No. Never will that happen. -- The next day was never better; Kent arrived with Chiles sa school. All I can do was smile at them and greet them a good morning, kahit deep inside me, nasasaktan pa rin ako. Dapat talaga masanay na akong masaktan para maimmune na. 5 am palang nasa school na kami, alam niyo naman Filipino time, so I guess yung 5: 30 na alis naming e mauuurong pa. I was sitting on the ground with my bag and Marj habang umiinom ng fruit soda. Tagal din naming hindi nakapagusap. “Kamusta ka naman?” I asked her. “Okay naman… May boyfriend na ako.” “O? Sino?” “A guy from class, kilala mo si Jeff?” Tumango ako. “Naks. Congrats.” “E ikaw? You don’t look so fine.” Napangiti ako. “Hindi ba?” “Yeah. About the Kent and Chiles thing going on around the campus.” I gulped. “Sila na ba?” tanong niya, I shrugged my shoulders sabay sipsip sa fruit soda. “Ewan ko, siguro…” She suddenly tapped my shoulders. “It’s okay.” “A-Anong sinasabi mo Marj…” “Hindi ko lang nasasabi sayo, but I knew you have feelings for Kent.” Kinalabutan ako. “Okay lang yan, best. Alam kong gusto ka rin niyang si Kent. Maybe he’s just too shy to admit it to himself.” “No, Marj, mali ka nang naiiisip. Saksi ako sa mga nangyari kay Kent. Yung mga reactions niya toward Chiles before.” “It was all before. Past na. Iba na ngayon. Wag kang mag bulag bulagan, Cheska. Alam ko na hindi ka manhid.” I sighed. “A-Alam ko… I can actually feel that… He’s being too nice for a friend, pero ayokong mag assume. Besides, may mga taong masasaktan. Ayokong maging selfish.” “Alam mo Cheska, minsan naiiisip ko makukuha ka na ni Lord.” Natawa ako. “Bakit naman?” “You’re too nice. Dati pa lang naiiisip ko na yun, yung pagsasabi mo noon na ayaw mong mag asawa just to stay beside your mother… Nako best, maaga ka talaga makukuha ni Lord.” Natawa kaming dalawa. “Kaw talaga…” -- Sumakay na kaming bus. I sat on the farthest seat. Need na umiwas. Nagsasakayan na yung iba nung nakaramdam na ako ng antok, and I started dozing off. KENT’s POV: Yeah, I picked Chiles up again, muntikan pa nga ako mapunta kela Cheska, because I was thinking about her habang nag momotor. Tae naman. I was searching for her around the campus nung assembly, pero hindi ko siya makita. Chiles was clinging on me, good thing, sakayan na ng bus. I saw her at the farthest seat, she was already asleep. I went there, pero umupo yung isang classmate namin sa tabi niya. Si Rommel, yung mukhang palibre. “Usog.” I told him. “Wala na akong uusugan.” I took out a 100 peso bill. “Lipat.” He took it at yun, lumipat nga. Mukhang pera e. I sat down beside Cheska, she was leaning her head on the window. Hinilig ko yung ulo niya sa balikat ko. Mas malambot dito. Hindi siya mahihirapan, but I was suddenly electrified. Weird, pero hindi ko na pinansin, this will be a long trip. CHESKA’s POV: I slowly opened my eyes, nagkutkot ako ng mata, nag tanggal ng muta, naghikab and finally, I realized who I was leaning on. Si Kent! Paano siya napunta dito? He was also fast asleep. I got goose bumps. Nako naman… I looked outside the window, 1 hour lang ako nakatulog, bilis din ng byahe namin. “You awake?” “Y-Yeah.” I replied. “Paano ka napunta dito? Akala ko sa bus ka nila Chiles…” He scoffed. “Sino nagsabi?” “Wala… Pero di ba… Ganun naman lagi pag couple…” Umayus siya ng upo, tapos parang yung mukha umasim. “Hindi pa naman kami e, why are you in a rush?” “Hindi naman ah.” Sumimangot siya. “Seriously, if you’re in a hurry to be with PJ, then run to him now and I don’t care.” Sasabat pa sana ako, pero biglang prumeno yung bus. We have arrived. Inirapan ko na lang siya tapos inayos ko na yung mga bags ko, siya rin. Mukhang bad trip talaga. Nag bababaan na ang lahat, nauna pa siya umalis dun sa iba. I took a sigh. Until when kaya magiging ganito? Until when? Forget it. [i][b]Let’s just see what will happen in this retreat.[/b][/i]

Last edited by gossipgirl03 (2010-05-29 02:40:02)

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SUSSSS! Ba't hindi pa kse mag aminan. Ak na aatat senyo eh! J[b]KLGJKSGJHDG[/b] XD .

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NAAAAMAAAAANN. I'm excited na~ HAHA. Ano kayang mangyayari? Wee. Wow, buti pa si PJ mabait na :-J

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