Quite errr...long [spoiler]I confess, like [b]bryekristoff20[/b], I feel like I'm useless. I hate being blamed of everything here at home. I am seriously burdened of being the only child. I just told my mom that I get angry at dad sometimes and hell, she got mad at me because of that. But it's true. They're the reason of this anger I am having on. And in fact, I didn't tell my mom that whenever I cry (because of my anger to them), my heart aches and this is the reason why I can't breath very well and have serious headaches. I'm tired of crying. Sometimes I feel like I wanna murder someone but, I just can't and I WON'T! I was even planning of suicide, I used to get the knife before and planned to stab it on myself, honestly. Just because of this anger and sadness I felt, makes me feel apart from my parents. But honestly, I just love them so much even though I feel so angry at them. What I just wish, and HOPE, they understand the thing that I'm feeling right now. I feel like I'm having a trauma or something and I usually lie at them saying that some dust just when inside my eyes that's why it's red, but the truth is, it's because of CRYING a lot. [/spoiler]