Re: I was able to edit my profile in friendster, Finally. XDD I am so busy these past few days. Well, thank god.
I love Bernard Jay Muyco and Marco Alfonso Go Santos III, even if he's GAY. and lastly, Je
I confess, I am [b]dead tired[/b] of my life. The optimism that made me was slowly conquered by the pessimistic side of me. I had lots of problems. And I thought, I won't have a problem here in the [u]cyber world[/u]. But, the answer is, [i]"You always will have a problem. Seriously."[/i]
First, with my [b]family[/b]. I appear as the usual bubbly girl to them, but the real thing is, I don't express my real feelings. That, in fact, I am a sadist. I am a [u]sensitive[/u] fouteen-year-old and I am really [u]gullible[/u]. But, whenever they offend my feelings, I just smile, go into my room, bury my face with a pillow. Then I will [color=red][b]cry[/b][/color].
Next, with my [b]friends and school[/b]. Of course, they also see my bubbly side, and they have always admire my impressive cheerfulness and energy. Of course I don't have to remember my problems back home, wherein my family is completely broken.. but, at school, when I don't feel a friend supporting me, I'll tell them, [i]"Okay, my head's aching. I'll take a nap first."[/i] and then, I'll be there on my desk, crying.
And third. Up here in the [b]cyber world[/b]. Wherein I thought I can be completely happy since no one will see my expression. But then, I am wrong. I dunno, but I think [b]happiness is not for me.[/b]
I just want a [u]happy family[/u]. A supporting [u]real[/u] friend. [u][b]Complete[/b][/u] happiness. But I know, God [b]never[/b] forsaken me. In times when I'm in need and I am lost, He is the only one for me there. [b]He is real, and He will never forget me.[/b] And lastly, because I can cry in front of God while I am praying, and I'll say, [i]"Lord God, thanks for the optimism you'll give me after breaking down in front of You."[/i]
Actually, I am thinking of not posting it here since I don't want someone to know my real feelings, but then, I knew, no one is gonna read it btw, so why not post here? At least I am able to let out my feelings, even though it's just typing it here..