`Chapter twenty-six..
It's painful. Tomorrow's Christmas. Pero parang araw ata ng kamatayan ko dahil the day after tomorrow, we'll go to London.. And leave everyone.
I'm staring silently at the Christmas tree sa sala namin, well, ano bang magagawa ko? Iniiwasan ko si Aaron at iniiwasan niya rin ako. So there's no point at all.
There's no point na mag stay ako dito while he doesn't like me. Wala ng kwenta pa ang pag stay ko dito kung ganun rin. I'll see him with someone else and I'll try to move on either.. as I think about this over and over again, the wound is just getting deeper and deeper.
Biglang may umupo sa tabi ko. I was surprised yet I tried to stay still. It was Aaron. He stares at the tree either and silence remained.
Until I decided to leave kasi wala ring mangyayari, pero he held my hand.
"Wait."
I pulled it from him.
"A-Ano?" I sat down again.
"Are you okay?"
OKAY?! Hell no!
"Sa tingin mo?" I asked him sarcastically.
"No?" He asnwered na pa-question pa ang tone.
"Then you got your answer." I was about to stand up once again but he held my hand again.
"Sandali lang."
"Ano ba? Ano bang dapat pag-usapan?"
I sat down again.
"So you're leaving on 26.." He said.
"Oo. Ano naman sayo? Wala ka namang pakielam sakin e. Tsaka mas mabuti yun para sayo, nang makahanap ka na ng babaeng matutunang maging immune para sayo, sa pananakit mo-"
"Sorry."
Nagulat ako nung bigla niyang sinabi yun. 'Sorry'? Ha ha. Ano bang magagawa ng sorry niya? It's too late. Halos konting hours na lang ata ang natitirang oras ko dahil 24 pala ngayon at 5 ng hapon.
Natawa ako. He looked at me with surprised eyes. Pinigilan ko ang sarili ko sa pag iyak dahil tatlong buong araw na akong umiiyak.. And my eyes are getting blurry.
"Why are you laughing..?"
"It's too late Aaron. Aalis na ako kayang wala nang silbi yang sorry mo. Ang mabuti pa, wag ka nang lumapit sakin so we could start moving on."
"That's why I'm saying sorry."
"Ano?"
"I know I've hurt you.. I know na umiiyak ka because of me. You seek for others because of me. I tore you down. And I'm sorry."
"Wala na ngang magagawa yang sorry mo.. Wala. So stop saying it."
Stop saying it 'cause the more you say it, mas lalo akong nasasaktan at mas lalong lumilinaw na talagang wala ng pag-asa.. Wala.
"No, gusto kong mapatawad mo 'ko."
"I do. Now stop saying it."
He touched my hand pero nag react ng kusa yung katawan ko, and I stood up and went away from him. He looked at me with loneliness in his eyes and bowed down.
"There's no way you'd forgive me..? I'm sorry.. At yun na lang ang masasabi ko.."
He stood up.
"H-hindi.. Ano.."
He walked away.
Aaron..
[b]AARON'S POV:[/b]
Masakit. Yeah. Na parang talagang she separates herself from me. Hindi ko naman pwedeng sabihin sakanyang ginagawa ko 'to para sakanya dahil mas masasaktan lang siya.. Di ba?
Dahil hindi siya aalis dahil alam niyang I want her to stay. Dahil alam niyang para sakanya ang pagsaacrifice naming dalawa.. And I don't want that her mom would blame me because of her future's destruction..
I changed my clothes. Lalabas muna ako at magpapalipas ng oras. Siguro babalik na lang ako mga bago mas Christmas.. Para makita ko pa ang huling ngiti ni Kath.
Pero will she smile for me?
I guess not. She's hurt enough to smile. She may not know but I've been watching these past few days. Para malaman ko kung anong nangyayari sakanya. And I've always been blaming myself for her agony.
Bakit ba kasi kailangang maging mahirap pa ako? Bakit pa?
[b]
KATH'S POV:[/b]
I lied down on my bed. Nandun si mama sa loob, nanunuod ng tv.
"What's wrong?"
"Wala po.." I lied.
"Aaron?"
I sat down.
"Opo.."
She sat down beside me and turned off the tv.
"How much do you love him..?"
She asked me.
"More than everything." I answered.
"How much does he like you?"
"I don't know. I don't know even if he did like me." I answered,
Mom sighed.
"I guess he does, very much."
"Ha?"
"He's been watching you."
"Ano po?"
"I saw him following you and stalking. He doesn't look when you cry."
Aaron's following me?
"It it true anak, mahal ka nga ni Aaron.."
"Pero wala na di ba? It's impossible. Aalis na ako rito."
Hindi naman sa nangongonsensiya ha, pero totoo naman di ba?
"Is that really what you think?"
"Ha?"
[b]What is mom saying?[/b]
[quote]The next one will be the last chapter. It will be out tomorrow!! Bye!!
Then I'll make another story again![/quote]