After the thing that had happened nung Valentine's. Pakiramdam ko, tuwing kasama ko siya, parang gusto ko nalang siya halikan buong araw.
It feels like I'm always on Cloud 9. Laging nakangiti at laging nakatulala. This isn't healthy already. Pero halata na talagang blooming na blooming ako.
Pero before I knew it, MARCH na. And alam niyo naman akung anong meron tuwing March diba? For the people na walang idea kung anong meron sa March, well, let me explain it to you. Ito ang mga kinatatakutang buwan ng mga may boyfriend/girlfriend sa senior year level. Siguro naman gets niyo na? Pero kung hindi parin, let's go straight to the point: HE'S GOING TO GRADUATE, GO TO COLLEGE AND IIWAN AKO DITO SA SCHOOL NA TO NG MAG-ISA AT THERE'S A BIG POSSIBILITY NA PWEDE SIYANG MAKAKITA NG IBA.
Ngayon, gets mo na?
And yes, super takot ako sa buwan na ito. If I can only stop the coming days, gagawin ko talaga. Kaya naman, lagi na naman akong nasa chapel para magdasal kay Lord kung ano ba talaga ang gusto Niyang mangyari sa aming dalawa. Some say, pakawalan ko na lang muna and let him decide after a year, and others naman nagsasabi, just be with him and grab the opportunity. Pero honestly? I'm more on the first one.
Ika nga sa awit, "..my friends keep telling me, that if you really love him, set him free. and when he comes back in time, I know he's mine. but tell me where do i start, coz it's breaking my heart, don't wanna let him go.." Wahahaha. Hanggang sa time lang sana iyan, nadala lang ako. Soorrry. Sorry. Hahaha.
So ayun nga. Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko. Kaya naman when I went home at nung gabing yun, I opened my Bible. Bago ako nagbasa, I prayed muna to the Lord and asked Him to give me answers about my dilemma. And when I opened it, dang. I Corinthians 13:4. "Love is patient; love is kind."
Take note. Love is patient. LOVE IS PATIENT. Does that mean that I should let go of him first? Wait for him... and believe that LOVE IS PATIENT?
I believe in God.
Nung gabing yun, pinag-isipan ko talaga yun ng mabuti and I came to a realization that Love is truly patient.
"Uyyy.. gagraduate na siya." Tukso ko sa kanya.
"Oo nga eh. Di na kita makikita lagi."
Napatingin ako sa kanya at napangiti.
"Uhmm.. Kai.."
"Hm?" He smiled and natunaw na naman ang puso ko.
"Hmm.. ano na ang mangyayari satin if ever magiging busy ka sa college life mo? If ever na.. di na tayo masyadong magkikita at magkasama? If ever na.." Napahinga ako ng malalim at napatingin sa langit.
"If ever na?"
"If ever.. na may makita kang iba?"
"Makikitang iba?"
He suddenly laughed. "Hindi iyan mangyayari. Bakit pa ako maghahanap if I know the world's best girl is just right beside me?"
"Tse. Mukha ka nang keso de bola.
Eh bakit noon di mo nakita iyan? I was just beside you always." Tampo effect.
"Dicee naman eh. Ika nga, 'what is essential is invisible to the eye'. Para kang 3d noon. I was just looking at the upper part of the picture. I didn't look deeper kaya di kita kaagad nakita. But when I did, I knew then I wouldn't let go of you. Unless, kung maririnig ko mismo sa iyo na ayaw mo na sakeen."
Bigla naman akong napatahimik at nagdalawang isip about sa proposal ko sa kanya. Siguro next time nalang yun. Wag ko na munang sirain yung maganda nameeng usapan. Hahaha. Kilig to the max na naman ako eh.
"Talaga?"
"Talaga." He then pinched my cheek and smiled again. "Dami mong drama."
"Hahaha. Nagpapacute lang ako."
"Kailangan pa ba yun? Cute ka na eh."
"Hahahaha. I second the motion."
"Dice.. I love you." He whispered and sooper napangiti na naman ako.
"I love you too."
Then he squeezed my right hand. Napangiti na naman ako.
At may isang panira ng moment ang tumunog.
*Riiiiiiiiiinnnnnnngggggg. *RIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGG.
I looked at him and he searched for his phone sa pockets niya. When he looked at the screen, biglang kumunot ang kilay niya and looked at it intently. I tried to usyuso kung sino ang tumawag, pero di ko makita ng mabuti. He looked at me as if asking kung ayos lang bang sagutin ko ang phone.
I nodded. He excused himself.
Sino kaya yun?