it'll be sort of rants . but let me post it since im totally desperate i confess . yesterday WAS SUPPOSED to be the best day on my life . ever . ever . but sadly . its not . It was my sweet 17th birthday, that was supposed to be really important . but . my parents leave me home alone . no food .nothing . my groupmate (RL) don't remember it . i meant, really no greet or anything . even i do love them , even they're supposed to be super special for me , but they forget me . in the most important day of my life . should they really do that =_= my groupmate there , also forget it =_= it was like . . lol . un-said feeling . i can't say what . i don't know how to said it . i meant by saying it not in rude way, since i'm in anger . yet sad . yet mad . yet upset . and totally dissapointed . (ok , except to mela and shak that greet me . thankyou ) but after all , even if you greet me in FB it still feel different . amf .i getting even more sad now =_= i feel like want to cry . and i am crying . since i do feel alone . my parent just gave me gifts or what . but still . it passed my birthday over . and its not special anymore . i hate it , why they didn't skip that day so i wont feel this desperate and sad . I hate people who ruin my day, and now , my special persons , my special friends ruin it . thankyou for the most un-forgettable birthday 'gift' . i wont forget it ever . as in ever . i cant smile . seriously i cant . i tried to , even some of my other forum friend totally spent their day for me , cheer me up , but its still not same . lol . you can think i wanted to much , but i am . =_+ i .. can't say much more . everytime i want to write, i still want to mad =_= and cried . don't care if this post get deleted or whatever . i got totally disapointed . i do wish . no one read it . no one tried to . but well , i realized im invisible so why bother to think people will read it . they'll stay to ignore you like before . lol =_+