i confess im effin effed up with all that's happening, and that i have to thank [b]Hervz[/b] for listening. It means a lot to me hervz. [b]Thanks for offering your shoulder when i need someone to cry on, and thanks for lending your ears when i need someone to listen.[/b] I know it's pretty rare for us to have a conversation like that, and i'm just pretty surprised that you're actually good at it. [u]You made me feel better[/u]. Thanks. Really. I've been keeping this for a week now, and i wanted her to tell me what to do. And even[b] scold me for being so stupid[/b] about my decisions. But where is she? [b]I thought she'll never let me down[/b]. I guess people really do change.Maybe i just miss her concern, A LOT. My dad brought me to SM last night and buy the shoes that i wanted. [b]It's pretty surreal, but yes, he just can't resist me.[/b] LOL. It just made me happy. It's been a long time since mom took me shopping, and then [b]dad's always filling that empty space up[/b]. Maybe Im still lucky. or maybe not?