I confess that I really wish that my life would get back to normal. Well imagine... five jobs + schooling by a twenty year old. Sometimes it drives me mad! Ugh, lack of sleep, acne and other various symptoms and the worst thing is, my myopia is getting worst. I remember one time that I actually blacked out because of it from before. I really wish a could get a job that doesn't burn my eyes and brain. Sure I get paid a lot but I really need an outlet. I can't help but work because my father has already retired, and my mom isn't with us anymore. Sure we have money but everyone knows one million isn't one million if you subtract one cent from it. Sure, I can take the faggots and the biatches on my work and destroy them on the process but ugh... sometimes I can't take it anymore. Though I'm happy that I met her. She kinda relieves me of my stress and angst. But still, I really wish to get another job even if it's mundane manual labor.