She ran away, leaving me with those painful words. I feel so damned. Bakit ba ganun mga babae? They always say such things without knowing the real thing. Hindi naman nila alam yung explanation, more over, they don't want to listen in our explanations. Please tell me this is just a nightmare. If it really were, they I jsut have to say that this is the worst nightmare, ever. I didn't go to the hotel, after making that girl cry... There's no way I could face her. I just went straight to our own house. The next day, I went to the airport kung saan nagpa-book sina Clariane. And Crap. They already flew back to Philippines without telling me. I know what that means. Clariane doesn't mean her words. I know she doesn't even though she left me without a single word about her TRUE feelings. [b]Clariane's POV[/b] I feel like this Giselle is dragging me to hell or something. I did stupid things lately. Nagmuka pa nga akong sira-ulo sa daan. Ugh. For all of the places in the world, bakit pa kailangan sa Canada? Dang. I hate this place, so bad. I feel like I just lost everything... including my first love. When I got back at the hotel, my mother saw me crying. I didn't have the courage to tell her everything that happened. I don't want her to get mad at Kris... or Prince. -___- I told her na katapos pumunta sa house ni Auntie Nenet, balik na kami ng Pilipinas. Who cares about that guy. Besides, Toronto is his hometown. UGH. [i]After Five Years.[/i] That guy left a big freaking hole in my heart. Lagi nalang ako umiiyak. I don't know what to do, what should I do? Feeling ko nga mababaliw na ako since kung ano-ano nalang ginagawa ko sa kwarto ko. Five years. Pero within those five years, I never had the guts to tell my mom the truth. Earl tried to heal those wounds, it didn't really work, but still, I feel happy knowing that this guy never left me even though I've always turned him down. I met this guy when I got in my 3rd year of college, and he's handsome. His name is Lauren. I took HRM by the way. This guy and I got pretty close. And I really could not stand it na dumating sa point na we've been friends for only three months. He gave in too, and started courting me. Sinagot ko naman. Sino ba namang hindi? Meron na ngang supermassive black hole sa puso mo, bakit hindi mo pa sasagutin 'tong gwapong to, diba? At least, kahit papano, nakalimot din ako. "Ui, hatid mo ko!" "One the way na nga e " "I'll wait then. Love you." First time to become a girlfriend. Sadista. Pero I can be sweet, too. [hr] Sixth monthsary. Grabe, it's like half a year already. And I just hope, there would be more months to come. Nah, let's just say, YEARS. DECADES. Isama mo pa ang CENTURIES. At the same time, Lauren would introduce me to his parents. I'm like, is this for real? So ano? Engaged na kami? Although I'm really happy about this, there's still something that is stopping me from doing all these things. "Pst! Make up na! Ang bagal!" "Carl?!" Mimay for Mary. She is my kuya Carl's wife. I know, she's beautiful. "Little sissy, I'll get your gown, okay?" She wore the most perfect smile. More over, she's so lucky that she got married to a very handsome guy. Pwek! Handsome ba kuya ko? When she got back, she handed me this purple gown. It's the gown that I wore when Kris kissed me. Crap. Hindi dapat yun yung iniisip ko. Ugh. Erased. SHould be erased. Besides, I already have Lauren. "What's wrong?" "N-No," I pulled a smile. "Alright then. Wear it and we'll see if it suits you." "Nah, no need. It still fits me. " "Is that so? Alright." And so I did wear it. As usual, people would give me lots and lots of compliments. Lauren sent the driver para ihatid na kami sa place. I dropped my jaw when I saw their house... and the people. It's like we're going to marry or something. Blush mode. The musicians played a sweet and slow melody. Meanwhile, Lauren showed me to his parents. At first I thought I was being serious, pero it felt like I was just acting out. Damn, why do I feel this way? [hr] "Excuse me, I have to go to the rest room." "Sure, Iha." Actually, I just wanted to have a break. Everybody seemed to be asking me for this and that dance. Like what the crap, I am wearing high-heeled sandals. Sana naman they would give considerations. When I got to the restroom, I urinated, and had a make-up retouch. I went to the garden to breathe some air. I don't know, I just feel like staying in this place. "Psst!" It was from nowhere. I swear. "W-Who is it?" "Pssttt!!!" Shit. Si Lauren to for sure. Alam naman niyang ayaw ko sa ganito eh. -___- Hindi na kaya kami bata. Asar. "Cut it out. It's not freaking funny anymore." He stepped in from nowhere. He covered my eyes pero inalis ko rin. For some reasons my heart just suddenly raced. I turned to him and saw a teary-eyed guy. "Say, what's up?"

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