huhuh help me plz... i wrote this @ my blog... my bf, he's been lying to me for bout 4 months... he didnt tell me that he has a family... a wyf, and 2 daughters... huhuhuhu open the spoiler to view the letter i sent him... [align=center][spoiler] "huhuhu it hurts me so much... aq nlng ang magpaparaya dahil alam q na kahit kelan ay d magiging maaus ang buhay namin kung maging kami man... huhuhu help me... huhuhu... bebe , baka my masabi aq sau na labag sa loob q... ayaw qng iwan ka pw0 nagmakaawa c kesa sakin... sabi nia kung kailangan lumuhod p xa gagawin nia, at isa pa nasabi rin ng mama mo skin n kahit kelan, d nia aq matatanggap... kaya pinasya q na magparaya be, masakit at labag man sa loob ko, kaya q un gawin para wla na aqng ibang tao pang masaktan... salamat sa lahat be... from now on, we cant see each other na... im crying my heart out wyl typing this mesej... at 1st d q tlga kaya, kaso ok lng n mamatay aq kesa makapatay aq... be my pamilya ka na... luv ur fam... specially kesa... she luvs u so much... d q kayag mawala ka be.... nag duha duha n gni q if isend p nq ni sa imoh...pwo i want this to stop na... if d ka tlga masaya ky kesa, maghihintay aq, pwo kausapin mo c kesa, dont play safe be, i know wat ur saying and doing sa bahay nio... nag uusap kami ni kesa,cnasabi nia sakin lahat... i know ur still lying to me, sabi ni mama be if kaya p b daw kita tanggapin sa kabila ng panloloko at patuloy n panloloko mo sakin, sabi q kay mama "I DONT CARE IF LOKOHIN MAN NIA AQ< MAHAL Q XA" muntik n nga aq masaktan ni mama ne eh, kaso alam nia n mahal tlga kita, sabi nia lng be n mas makakabuti sa lahat na lumayo n tau sa isa't isa... en i agree wid dat even though masasaktan ako, i dont care, kc be, maiisip mo rin pagdating ng panahon nah, hindi mo ko mahal, pag pinakikinggan q ung cd n binigay mo sakin be, umiiyak aq, aq lng mag isa, kc ayaw q makipag usap sa iba... ayaw q mag labas ng sakit ng loob, kc baka pag ginawa q un, baka d n q tumigil pah... sa twing magkasama tau, parang ayaw n kitang pakawalan... kung pde nga lng na kidnapin kita gagawin q, naaawa lng tlga aq ky kesa at sa mga anak moh, sana maintindihan moh... but dont ever think nah d kita mahal dahil kahit kelan d ka mawawala sa puso q be, kahit kelan... maghihintay aq sau be, i will only stop waiting if and only if napatunayan q n ok n kau ng fam mo at ni kesa, and that's what i wish for... kc nsasaktan lng aq lalo eh... be i want to hug u, to kiss u, to be with u always, pwo d pde eh... sana be mapag isip2 mo to, as in ayaw q mawala ka pwo d n tlga tau pdeng magkita, i know na galit sakin ang mom mo, ang dad mo at kung cno2 pang nakaka alam ng kwento natin, pwo ayaw q masira ang buhay nio... lalo n ng mga anak moh... i think be, eto n ang last nating pagkikita... i can get over this... I WISH... i lab u bebe... xobra... xobra xobra na kaya qng magparaya... if wer meant for each other, love will find its ways... at the ryt tym... but now, its obviously not d ryt tym... mas takot kang mawala c kesa sau kesa sakin be, i know... kaya she deserves you more dan i do... i lab u be... dont forget dat... i love you, i loved you and i will always love you... bye be... MaNeL... i lab u bebe... i dont know i can get over you... huhuhu... if wer for each other... i will w8 for you..." [/spoiler][/align] huhuhu i love him so much that i can even kill myself... this hurt is killing me, i cant talk to any1 coz i know even if they listen, they would think im crazy, he was my first luv en i think my last... do i deserve this? i cant help myself to cry... it was april 14 wen i knew the truth... his wyf and mother came to our house, i didnt know whats going on, until his wyf cried infront of me... she begged for me to give my bf bak... i cant... i dont want to but i have to... huhuhuhu help me god.... huhuhuh...

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