wow. so therapeutic. hehe. yeah. grieving period. almost done. i don't text him anymore even if i'm on unlimited texting mode. it's a step forward. yeah, it's his loss. he don't deserve me. hehe. i'll be happy and he won't. ---gosh! bitter... yikes! haha. i still don't know if i'll go abroad. i'm still choosing between being a staff or clinical instructor! staffs have lesser salary (big difference) than C.I. s... i think i'm still ok. thanks angeli