This was supposed to be posted yesterday, August 23. Lol. --- Dear Diary, I feel weird now. After posting [url=http://azecalicesky.com]HERE[/url] and [url=http://kooori.jugem.jp]HERE[/url].. OMG. I dont know. Im drained. I feel worthless. My baby's with someone else now and Im just standing here.. [b]DOING NOTHING.[/b] I mean, WTH? Do I have to run after him? Although, yes, I know that it's kind of the right thing to do since [b]he was mine first.[/b] But I dont really know whats happening to me. I love baby so much but Im not brave enough to face that (foul word here) girl! And yes, I didnt expect this to be happening. At least not now. It really hurts when you let go someone the moment you are loving that person the most. Feeling that feeling when he/she is with you only to [b]NOT[/b] feel it the next.. it hurts your insides so bad. I feel like Im gonna die now if Im not able to cry out loud. And I cant. It sucks how I cried [b]all night[/b] last night. I even called my bestfriend at wee hours in the morning just to have someone to be with. Cause that sole person who understands [i]the every fiber of me..[/i] has already left. He's my [b]HAPPINESS,[/b] my [b]ALL,[/b] my [b]EVERYTHING,[/b] my [b]LIFE.[/b] He went away but I still feel that he's going back. [i]No, Ice. He's not going back..[/i] And it pisses me off how he says he's sorry. I mean, thats all you have to say? After making my eyes turn [i]BLOODSHOT RED[/i] due to endless crying.. After leaving me behind after all that we've talked, shared and planned? Well, thank you. You can die now. --- Thats all for now. My eyes really hurt A LOT. I need Vodka.