Dearest Diary: My Friendster friends are officially gone now. Idk what to do with myself... On a much lighter note, I've been spending lots and lots of quality time with my boyfriend. I love him to death. I am happy. I like being happy. Today, at school, we had a fire alarm drill, I heard someone pulled the alarm as a joke. Well, it wasnt very funny, considering that people were freezing their asses off! Anyway, I was with my boyfriend for most of the day, but tomorow it'll be different. Block day #2. Juniors with last names A-K are supposed to take this Army exams to see their strengths and weaknesses... Dan already took it. I haven't though. I'll be taking it on Wednesday. I need to call Dan now. Seeeeeya! XOXO; Julie Mae

[b]11.21.08[/b] effin' friday Dear blalalala diary, Today, yeah today. I had school. of course duh. my school lunch is driving an express way. wadafak? it won't show up what is on the menu for the month. so I lost my appetite. like today i'm expecting for macaroni cheese yum. then they served stew blah. I left the cafeteria. even though im hungry. like real hungry. [b]SUUUPAH HUNGRYY[/b]. and then after school I hang out and finish my art homework with my friend kaelin. for like 30 minutes? idk. his mom pick him up. so i decided to just come over to his house. i went with them. [b]GAAAAAH[/b] we played PS2. we didn't cook like the last time. too dayumm lazy and tired. so we went down mc donalds we [b]WALK[/b] [b]this extremely effin retarded tiring shtty SOOPAH LONG ass road[/b] damn i tell you. like really. we pass my house anyway. so yeah when we got there. we directly order and eat. haha [b]SOLVEEE[/b] . we saw my sister driving so we followed her [still walking]. we went to my house. my stupid sis bee-F doesnt want her to drop us back to kaelins house and i have my stuffs there, my bag and everything. sht. fcuk him. so [b]IRRITATING[/b]. he said we need exercise! how dumb is that. of course u need rest too. we already walk that road. and its a night mare. its even harder since we're going upp' this time. luckily my sister knows what to do. she drop us off. i lalalab my sister. screw her bf though. fucking ignorant dummy. and then when we got kaelins house i grab my stuff the leave. we wanted to sleep over to camilles house but she wont answer the fone. now im talking her on myspace. and yeah i cant forget what happen yesterday at the beach. my day went like a bridge. like hmmm. blah i cant explainn' but heres a preview. note it doesnt make sense. [spoiler][img]http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/47/l_6b4d47493ee1410596e5d7792eb43ed0.png[/img][/spoiler] [b]BWUAHAHAHA[/b]! -chris

[b]November 24, 2008 Monday[/b] [i]Dear diary, It's been a very very cold. Snow is everywhere. Everything is covered with white. And I'm a bit.. hmm.. happy?. Haha. IDK. after i watched the eurosong festival last saturday and saw this boy. I felt sumting. I think I'm in love. Ooops. corny anyways. that's all. hehe. buhbyes ~Rocel.,-♥[/i]

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[b]11 / 25 / 2008[/b] [sup][b]Tuesday[/b][/sup] [b]Dear Lovely Diary,[/b] I missed my elementary days so much, but being a highschool student is also fun. I just missed having the [b]special attention[/b] @ School. LOL! Well anyway, im currently [b]INLOOOVE[/b] right now with a guy name [b]K****T*[/b] Oopps! Well, he's not my type. I dont know, I just [b]Crush[/b] him. Its just a crush at first, but I dont have any idea why Im feeling this Loev thing right now. [b]He's so sweet. He's cute and He's kind.[/b] But the only problem is, He is my bestfriend's [b]EX-Boyfrieeend [/b]. They just broke up last month, [b]October 31, 2008[/b] and I guess He already moved on. Honestly, I already have a crush on him eversince. Im just too shy to tell that's why my bestfriend owned him first. He's my classmate and before were [b]Seatmates.[/b] That's why I dont want that seating plan rule, Its done every Period coz [b]I want to be with him every second[/b]. That's the reason why I get mad with our adviser every period. [b]Crazy me.[/b] Im soo paranoid when I dont see him, especially when he's absent. I just dont want to express it coz there are many [b]CHISMOSOOO && CHISMOSAAA[/b] all around. Kidding. I just dont want them to know my feelings about this Guy. esterday was such a disaster. Well, Ill just call him [b]CP[/b] ( codename ). When I went to school, I immediately looked for him. And Luckily, i saw him [b]alone[/b], that's why i got the chance to go beside him. We went upstairs together. He somehow became my [b]Bestfriend[/b] coz I tell him my Crushes, even those that I hate too, and yeah, I trust him. I trust him that he'll never spread out my deepest and darkest secrets in life. He makes me laugh and he sometimes makes me cry too. Yeah, He makes me cry everytime he pretends that he's mad at me. Then of course, I would also [b]Pretend that Im mad[/b] too, but that pretending thing becomes real. I became really mad at him. And it always makes me [b]BAAADTRIPPPPP![/b] through out the day. But when were all dismissed, he go near me and ask me this: [i]" Galit ka pa ba?? Sorry na."[/b] yeah, with a sad face. Then ill just snob him and continue walking, but he's pulling my hands that's why i just cant let go.. Then he will not stop apologizing until I forgive him.. Then when I think of forgiving him, I'll immediately feel happy, and all those mad feelings would just be blown away like a wind. Then were okay again. And then He would ask me again before we'll part ways: [i]" Bati na tayo ha? Sorry na ulet. Bye. "[/i] then I would just tell him, [i]" Oo na. Babyes. "[/i].. Oh my, diaryyyy! --- [i]To be Continued..[/i] [b]♥ Dadadadanxxx ♥[/b]

[b]11 / 25 / 2008 Tuesday[/b] Dear Diary, [i]Wow..Sure is a fine day outside..A fine gray day..Like it's about to rain or snow... I love days like these..Matches the mood, huh? So, I'm kind of getting bored of taking quizzes at blogthings, so I started working on my Punk-O-Matic thingie for Rockstars. I don't really care if I don't win...I don't even care if no one votes for me. Why?? Cuz I just don't care..ANYWAY, second day of babysitting. 20 bucks a day sounds...cheap. At least I get 60 bucks in total, right? At least at school, there IS something to do. While in here, I just sit, typing this, drinking my hot chocolate, chewing the marshmallows. *Sigh* Yay for boredom. And I guess I'm alone in Rockstars right now. Okay, goodbye.[/i]

[b]11 / 26 / 2008[/b] [sup][b]Wednesday[/b][/sup] [b]Dear Lovely Diary,[/b] I just wanna Continue my last post. Im so [b]CRAZZZYYYY[/b] over him. When he talks to me in the eyes, I feel my heart, it beats faster. He makes me fall for him even more. Anyway, Im doing all my best to hide this feeling, [b]But when can I stop?[/b] When will I be tired of faking my feelings for him? Today, Tomorrow, Next month, Next year, or [b]Forever[/b]?? I wanna tell him, but when I listen to the advices of some close friends, well, they're advices falls on one opinion, its by not telling him coz maybe our friendship will just go to waste. And I dont want that to happen. Im too scared to lose him. Im too shy to tell him. and [b]Im too weak to Love him.[/b] Its hurts, yeah it sure does. Enough of the Loev thing first and Start with my Friends. In our school, we have that kind of Groups containing 4-9 members. In our group, we are only 4 and we sure are [b]Bestfriendsss[/b]. We live like celebrities and We dont actually care what people will think of us when we started doing this, and that. All we know is were having so much fun. Were weird, were crazy, were young and were pretty. When we have problems with each other, We consult ourselves, especially when it involves Love. Sometimes, of course we argue but it just always ends up in being okay. We laugh together, we eat together, and we go out together. That's what friends are for. We all love to sing, and obviously, we all love Music. Its our life. It saves our soul. Well that's it. Bye diary. ILY [b]XOXO. [/b] [b] ♥ Dadadadanxxx ♥[/b]

11 / 26 / 2008 -Wednesday Dear Deedee, Today? Quite different than the usual. Tsk. I'm so sick of this day.Lewl. Well.. Today..my friend..seems to be different. Hmm? Yea. It's so not usual. Very awkward. Maybe were both concious? Oh yea. I hate it because my classmates teases us. . i miss our bond. lewl. Well..lately..i just told him he's a GAY..i dunno. it just came out..then i think he got mad. Tsk. He is mad. The following happenings went awkward. I hate this. I wondered..my laughing rate is low. My smile count is not anymore countless. Oh. I hate this .. ..Ive been looking at him secretly. Ive been reading his expressions all day. But i failed. I dunno what's with him. He's wierder than ever. Tsss.. Well..today also. I remembered ALL my past! As in ALL! Not past bf or sumtin. Past crushes or sumtin? Yea. sort of. But also include my frst bf . Lewl. I still consider myself as NBSB. .. Hu cares if i'm not anymore? He's juz one and i dont consider him as a bf..okei? Well..i remembered him bcoz my friends went chixmax about him. And i juz..like saying..OKAY..[i]watever[/i]..Hu cares about that jerk? No one. What is lyk to have no crush? It's like hell i think. Yea. Dont have crush or sum1 to love. and I'm not joking. I wanna cry out loud right now. But i cant. Maybe i cud just weep or silently cry. Reasons for crying? Nothing. I dunno. My mind is so full of useless matters that becomes a useful something. Tss. Do u know what it's like to be like me? to be hurt? to be lost? ..dang! I'm getting too emotional .WTH. Well look hus talking? Carmela Garcia? A science class stud? a consistent achiever? a sketchmaster ? a storywriter? a computer literate ? a math geek? what else? you think i'm darn happy about those "names"? Hell not! I may be like this..like that. But i feeeeelll realllyyy incomplete! Darn myself for bein so naive all the time. Sorrryyy..i'm getting to emotional. My grammars arent right. I'm very [i]magulo[/i]..cant understand myselfff.. WTF! Help me Lord..( music: [spoiler]Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna runaway? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face No one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay Everybody always gave you what you wanted Never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like, what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life[/spoiler] [align=right]Love, carmx[/align]

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Dearest Diary, Long time to see, eh? Yes, yes, Ive been quite busy with LIFE. Lately, Ive been so busy with school [#1 priority], work [ehhh, doing ok], family, friends, and DANIEL JEFFREY COFFMAN. Its really difficult to keep up with all without upsetting the balance of everything. School has kept me the busiest. AP Psych and French 3 have been very tricky for me. Only because I have been kinda lazy lately. I was supposed to go to work today, but my mom thought it be best for me to relax, since I have to work on a holiday, which would be Thanksgiving. Luckily, Ive spent quality time with my family and friends. As for my boyfriend, I have spent most of my days with him, I honestly can't go a week without talking to him. I'm contemplating on what to give him as a Christmas present, it was to be something meaningful... Hmmmph... Oh, I talked to Jesse [Infamous J] via Yahoo! Mobile last nite. It was really fun. I miss that guy. Ive lost touch with all my other Ftalk friends, which is really sad.Considering, I have met some prettty neat people here. Well, I'm going to go bond with my sisters now. Until next time! xoxo; JMAE!

November 26th.. (+7 gmt) Still Wednesday... Dear Diary.. Waa.. i miss youuu.. hahahaha.. well.. i didn't attend my english-thai class this morning.. because i was too lazy.. and i was chatting with my Rockmates.. anyways.. nothing great happened today.. wait.. i know there is.. lol [i]*after minutes of thinking..* [/i]Oh yeah.. i received another phone call from my ex.. well..he just informed me that the assistant directress was looking for me.. because she wants me to sign up for that play thing for our christmas presentation.. thats why i was like.. "Oh..c'mon.. what kind of joke is that??.." but anyways.i don't wanna talk about it.. oh yeah..i even lost a lot of tears tonight.. because of that tv soap.. gosh.. i am so lovin' it.. and i can somehow relate to it.. [sup]wtf.?[/sup] whatever.. and..i am just wondering why some people fall for those people who doesn't love them.. unconditional love eh?.. puh-lease.. and they have to wait for them.. [i]okay.. i am talking about myself..so what?.. grr.. i can not take it anymore.. i am falling for him.. hahaha...keep your mouth (dang..i did not know that a diary has a mouth.. ) zipped retarded diary.. [/i] waaaaaa.. i think i should stop now.. hahahaha... Lovelots, Eney..

[b]11 / 27 / 2008[/b] [sup][b]Thursday[/b][/sup] [b]Dear Lovely Diary,[/b] Im feeling sick today so i decided to be absent. Just for today. Lol. Im wondering what Mr. CP is doing at this very moment. Is he done eating his lunch? Is he sad? Is he Happy? Is he smiling? These kind of thoughts just came into my head whenever I see my siggy. Im so weird. Well anyway, I hope he's fine. I hope he misses me, coz Im missing him so much. I [b]UBEEEEER[/b] loev you Im currently getting addicted in watching this Taiwanese Movie, entitled: Why Why Love! Mike He makes my heart go [b]KRAYZEEEEEEEEE[/b]. He's so cute and handsome. I wish I can meet him in person. Im currently watching Episode 8 Part 2 of 8. [b]xoxo, ♥ Dadadadanxxx ♥ [/b]