Dear diary, No one really reads much the stuff here so i thought i'd give it a go. The thing is, i'm starting to feel like a useless freshly graduated nurse stud. It sucks so much not being able to get a job right away and wait for the effin results that you don't even know if you passed or not. It's now or never for me. If i passed, what now? If i failed, i will never be able to show my face to the general public, probably gonna suck on a chupa chups while watching naruto and other tv series after that. My heart will be very very broken, shredded to pieces like gravel turned to sand. The only strength that keeps me going is the promise i made to myself, without any written contract is that i must help my family and try to make my family one again. Story of my life is full of crap yet i ignored everything for that sole purpose. I want my old family back, the old family that prays together, eat together, laughing together. It makes me sick to my stomach to see other people breeze their way up the top without effort. It's just unfair, but that's just the way life goes. [i]Res ipsa loquitor[/i]..the thing speaks for itself. The world is a sad corrupted place for a mere survivor sperm of the human species to live through. In the end, all of these are just earthly things. Someday, i'll come back to my master, and in his kingdom, there ain't no crap to step on. Just peace, Lots of it. Well, there's lots of it in what i'm writing now, what else to say.. oh yeah, i'm sick of life, but i'm happy. [color=blue]Ambivalent,[/color] [img]http://i27.tinypic.com/2nw08bt.jpg[/img]