Date: Sept. 18, 2008 Day:Thursday Happenings: dear moi diary, [spoiler]i'm very happy today coz the virus inside te comp is now gone and we didn't reformat it. we just DW sum in [b]download.com[/b] and tenx god, our sleepless nyts are made to be paid. About the school, hayz it's the wrong tym to cry inside te campus. wanna know what happened? so here it goes: [quote]when the bell rang, we hurriedly go downstairs to search for food. It's our happiest hour coz it's recess tym owredi. When i was on the canteen waiting for my classmates to go with me, i saw her looking at me, with an evil eyes. Moi bessy sheene know that girl and when i talked to sheene and say that she look at me wid an anger expression, she talked to her. Moi bessy make me really worried and the funny part there is the girl, who crushes moi [b]EX-CRUSH[/b] look at her with an evil look too when moi bessy's friend told her that it was moi EX-CRUSH's girlfriend and the news spread easily like a fire, and he said on moi bessy that " [i][b]wag nyo kasi sya awayin... pag yan nagalit..[/b][/i]". is he okay? we are the ones who's innocent and then he's telling that we argue his friend but we didn't! when AP class started, i gave a letter to akiko and i said inside it that i wanna say sorry to him, for all those scandal i have made & for making him mad. But instead he get the letter, it seems that he didn't read what's inside of it. When the art class started, i sat down beside akiko and he really seem to read the letter i command him to give on moi EX-CRUSH and he tell me " [i][b]anu bang nanyari? bakit? sabihin mo saken...[/b] [/i] " I dun wanna cry but i dunno why moi tears came rolling down moi eyes as it gives a smooth and comfortable feeling than before. I used to be quiet if i have some problems coz i dun want sumbody will know what is happening on moi life. Then he started to call my EX-CRUSH and i started to switch place becoz of he's calling him, asking what did he do to me. Then my friends and bestfriends came to ask what did happen, why i cry.. and etc. But i only answer them with a "no" shake in moi head. I carry the pain only by myself. After explaining my problem, my EX-CRUSH was saying "[b] [i]i dunno what happen to her, i really dunno what did i say to her...[/i][/b] " in that tym, i realized that i really needed 2 move on and forget what feelings i still have for him. Then i also decided that, if i avoid talking or having a bond with him, it will lessen the pain and the news about us inside the room so i avoid him starting when i cried until i got to go home.[/quote] wheww... that's very long story, and yeah it's very breaking on my part. Protecting the culprit and putting the innocent one in the bad situation is very heart breaking. still, while im writing this one now, im a lil bit cry here coz he really didn't like me, i just proved to my self that im pretty useless for him, that i'm a friend for him and nothing can change that state but him and i really proved that im LOSER coz i let this things run on my life, not thinking what will happen, just thinking what i'll feel and being REAL SELFISH LOSER to everyone. Now, my enemies are true, IM SUCH AN IDIOT LOSER WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE AND WHEN IT COMES TO EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE MADE A DECISION! [/spoiler]