October 3, 2008 Entry #5 - "Termination" --------------------------------------- [color=blue]Dear Diary,[/color] [spoiler]Me and her were terminating a patient's IV that time... yet in my mind I am very bothered with what she texted me. [quote]I'm not ready, and i see you as my very best guy friend...[/quote] I think i confused her with the letter i gave her. I must talk to her, i can't make conclusions on my own anymore. We were making our DAR in the patient's chart when i started to talk to her. I asked her if that was everything that she has to say to me. She said that she is confused and was scared to tell me because we might lose our friendship with what she will say. We talked for hours but still she will end up in the same line that she see me as her very best guy friend and she don't want that to change. I respected her decision and walked away into the nurses room. I lay down in the bed and tried hard not to cry. Asking myself why. I guess now is not the right time, i will wait for her to be ready. I'm not giving up on her but for now, i must terminate.[/spoiler] [color=blue]Love is complicated,[/color] [img]http://i37.tinypic.com/sol4c8.jpg[/img]