120508 5:10 pm to my friendly diary, i already told him... im sad coz i know that i hurt him... but what can i do,,, its better to be this way... than to tell him i still love him even if i know im not! he called me just this morning and i heard him crying on the other line but i just ignored it... and just tell him that im busy... haizt,,, i feel so sorry... i hope he can meet who loves him... really... not like me...