December 08, 2008 monday *immaculate conception - no classes *sigh dear ftalk online diary, i am now listening to a song, "always be mine - phath" then i remember my crush and *thinks* if i can sing her this song even though were so distant to each other. then i PM her, we were exchanging thoughts. bang! i made a mistake, i give her a not-so-called good joke. and i know she was irritated, i kept asking her if she was mad but still no answer, y am i feeling this? there is a guilt inside me? i want to scream but i can't. this feeling was weird, every time i see her picture or even her signature picture, my heart would jump for joy. i can't understand this feeling, same with what happened last night while i was singing "moment of truth - fm static" her name was in my mind, and my trembling voice wants to shout her name. this intense feeling was so weird, every time i would logged in here in ftalk, i would search her name and look for her to have an online conversation with her. [s]i was falling[/s] noooo!! >.< she's now mad at me, i know that very well. that's y i sent her the song i found in the youtube. i hope she will like it. i hope your not mad if your reading this crap. i won last night, oh it was 2nd but at least i won, my crush is always on my mind . . . . .