january 2. 2009 - *big bang 2009: shuttered memories X(* dear ftalk diary, [spoiler][quote]this day was the most weirdest day for me, my first love rejected me during the countdown. she said she's happy with her new boy friend, i know that she is using reil (his errr. new boy friend) to make me jealous. but when i see the kiss marks to her neck. ohh. this is lame, i should forget her, thank god. my soulmate texted me a happy new year, she cheered me up then. when i look up the sky, its big bang 2009. the fireworks display was bit awesome, i was alone. while my first love and his new boy friend held hands and went together to their house, i still watched the fireworks display, crying. then a child poked my eyes. *grr, i hate that child!* then i realize it was my [i]kinakapatid[/i] and he said, *diba kuya only losers cry?* then i smile, he remembers all the things i thought, then i answered. *i am not crying, i only remember 2008.* then i held him up, we went to our house for him to eat and for me to play the sparkling sparklers with my little cousins. oh, why am i telling this things. i should tell the things happened to me this morning. okay, i woke up at 2:50 am, to have my weird walk in the neighborhood, josien texted me to fetch her up, she wants to walk in the rain. she's really weird because its 2:50 in the morning and she wants to walk? but yet, i walked in the neighborhood with her, i knew she was drunk. wahaha. then she in front of me, so i drag her to their house, i am so rude for dragging her, wahahaa. and greeted her mom a happy new year. hehe. then i go home and went to sleep. when i woke up around 9 am, my first love texted me:*open your ym, we need to talk, i was so shocked for she slapped me last time we met and she said, forget all thing about her, im trying to forget her and look what she's doing. then i turned on my pc and logged in to yahoo messenger, to my surprise. she just want to make a speech about my stupidity and being a failure, to what things i have regretted. oh i hate myself, i cant imagine my life before, then i noticed, tears are rolling down my cheeks. i am so emotional then, then i slapped myself, punch myself and dodge to the bed, and promise myself i should renew myself. when i washed my face, i promise to myself life would be better for 2009. wahaha then poofs i logged in here in friendster talk to share my life, wahaha. i should make this one a habit. wakoko oh i miss soulmate, and i am getting over to my first love, she is a waste of time. happy new year! earth ox is coming to our way, waahaa[/quote] [/spoiler]