@topic of first time well my first time, i was not scared though i want to back out when we got in to the motel but didnt happen of course,,, im not that scared because im a late bloomer i believe... i was 22 that time and i am already independent so i was thinking that what ever will happen after that, i can still handle my self i think. but during the activity i was thinking about my mother. i mean during those moments i cant avoid thinking about my nanay... i dont know why... maybe because of being guilty of what i was doing...