i confess that deep inside i am really depressed right now and i am only a great pretender that i am lively and xoxo happy . before i have this cyst on my 'u know where' and my doctor said, that was really near to stage 1 cancer ,but i already undergone surgery.... i thought that was all over but this time i can see something again on my 'u know where' and i am really afraid about this! i am living alone here in my dorm and both of my parents are in the philippines im also afraid to tell this to them because im afraid to accept the fact again if ever i really dont know what to do..... i dont have friends here..im a homebody thats why im just keeping this one by myself. i am afraid of surgeries and if that will be the solution again... i dont think i can face it again.. im just waiting, ...whatever happens then let it happen now, i cant help myself but to think of this every minute especially most of the time im alone.