woah i missed dthis forum huh... the first two was so sweet huh... maybe they have plans of marrying each other soon... wow,dont forget to invite me. first of all i feel sorry for what happened to jesse. and sir ej kinda make him feel bad huh... very funny situation. nwei about the issue i have opened, marriage/separation i would like to open up something in my case. and also to answer ms. rose question on who is that new man actually old/new guy [spoiler]i sometime gets in mind that i only got married because i got pregnant haha "disgrasyada" nwei whenever we had quarrels it always come to me that i only marry the guy because of our kid. we always comes into quarrel everyday or i say 3x a week mostly when we are together in one place, and even we are out of the hause some like family gimik, we cant avoid being pissed by each other. whatta terrible life living with the person who you can't avoid because of marriage. sometime in our relationship i happen to fall out of love i guess because in a long period of time that we are together i admit that i learn to love him and the fact that he was the father of my kid then.i met a guy, but i never expected this guy to replace my partne's position. at first i was like hesitant of having any relationship with him but as time passes, i happen to fall for him to the extent of having an affair with that guy, and happen that my partner had found out about it.the situation was so critical to the point that i gave up everything i believe i had because of that guy, but with no reason, i fail to pursue a relationship for that guy maybe because i and he realize things in our life and situation, after fixing some issues with my partner we happen to still live together but in a horrible relation as if we never changed. quarrels and everyhting gone into next level of hurting each other more and even to the point that he actually hit me physically. i totally lost my respect to hima and i think him also to me now that he can do anything he wanted.i was always thinking about marriage, the bind that bringing us to be together, we only had papers now.see what was the effect of two people who happen to get married in a wrong time and with maybe wrong person. because of the unstopable quarrels and isues between me and my partner the long lost love with the guy i get involved with before was now revived. but with considerations with that person that i think im starting to love again, i was thinking of his sake first. that fact that he was offering things that i never expected he would think of. i dont want to be unfair with him. if i accept his marriage proposals and a happy and peaceful life with him, i would just give him so much trouble. how can i marry him if im already married? i know he knows how much i love him that of all i have given before and until now if he knows that im dying to be with him. but because i was demanding something that he can't give and because of that love i have its more better for us to live in separate ways. accepting facts that impossible things only happens in fairy tale. now im going to escape from all of my sufferings and all the things and person that makes me happy. because of that darn marriage. [/spoiler] i want to share in an issue of abortion. i dont have no idea if anyone here knows the name of med "sytotec"/ "sycotec" actually i have taken those meds since last thursday. 2tabs for oral and 1 inserted in the v. i have no idea if im pregnant already or not, but i guess im going to be because of unsafe sex i didnt take a test bcoz im afraid to find out about what im expecting. two days to go and im done with that remedy. so what? did i practice abortion already, as i ve said before, i will not because i still have my righteous thiking yet to think that getting pregant will give me a good life with my partner? another reason i will be leaving the country tonight. i dont wanna mess with my relative who had helped me to get out of my missery. so... did i make the right decision then? am i out of my righteous thinking?