i confess its really hard for me to find some sleep now that im waiting for someone that i dont know if will still come home or not. he text last night after office saying that he will be out with a guy friend. i dont want him to go because of my reasons, concern i can say that he will be out of the haus the whole night. he never tried to reach out of my reasons why i didnt want him to go somewhere. when i called him on his fone, he never answers. i called him so many times but he never answer, when he answer the fone, he told me that he was already in his friends place, i ask him whats the occassion why he needed to have some bonding with that friend of his and he cant give me a good reason, i was so mad and angry telling him that he's so insensitive, that my feelings dont matter to him anymore, he doesnt give any damn concern on how he was hurting me. i ask him again his friend celfone number and he never give it to me. is he really with that friend of him or he's with another woman? darn i was thinking too much! and now, after one text i received with a one word with a "?", i was still calling him again and again and he still never answer. i send him message asking him why he didnt gave me his friends number and he never replied to me until now. he is really not with that friend he told me he's with right? hay... i really want to cry because of anger but i think it will just be a waste of tears. as i told him on our last talk on fone, i will just be fair for him from now on, do his things and ill do mine also... this is what he really want? hurting and cheating, shame and disgrace? i will NOW give it to him.