I'm back. But I feel really awful when somebody sent me a message after long hard-working days as a student and so I start my fully-loaded confession while I listen to my favorite band Epica. (Lol) As I was saying, the message was a note that I was removed from the previous group I joined. Actually I really felt bad about it but I guess it won't matter anymore. I just feel like I was insulted and frustrated. Although there's really nothing much to do about it and the least I can do is to post some his and hellos to other members. I always try to drop by even if there's nothing really to talk about inside the group and I know no one there. On the other hand, the way the sender is kinda harsh to tell me about it. How cruel? Lol. That user just triggered my innocent and sensitive heart hard and my mind can't make me forget all about it lol... It was so unexpected and I confess that it made me think that there's nothing really left for me here. Which reminds me also way, way back, a topic of mine was also closed despite that there's no reason to close it (as for me) and I haven't said anything about it yet. The topic gets nowhere without my lead that I myself is also guilty for the reason that I'm not always online. Everything gets off-hand and they didn't even let me say a thing. They can't even wait and they just concluded that this is right or wrong just because everyone disagrees with it. I appreciate those people who tried and I understand that language may be a barrier to express our own thoughts. How can they be convinced without hearing someone else's words? Because all they hear is themselves. Why do I have to put a topic I can't follow all the time anyway? The result: Without due consent (and since the higher ranks don't need it anymore), they close it immediately and consider it done even if it's not. I wanted to PM some of the users who posted there so that I may know how they truly feel about it but I am scared for them to think about it. Why do I get too personal now?! Hahaha... So now, I just laugh it off. I tried but it still makes me sad. I want to stay longer but the people disappoints me. Just like the others, I'll just watch soon everything will get mad and leave this forum. No wonder why some things are getting worse now and a disease overcomes everyone without knowing it. But then again it's just me. If you consider it is a rant, let me tell you now that there is nothing really wrong when people rant about something unless others will take it personally and won't bother to click PM to message the person. So please don't delete my post. You just don't know how painful when one's post gets deleted without knowing it. This is how I feel - my confession. Thank you for bothering to read this.

Last edited by lalalalalalala (2008-12-19 12:06:35)