i confess that again im so emotionally stressed. i think i should go to the doctor now to have my sanity normalized. it was an obvious emotional torture again! i was so tired of those. i can't do anything but to cry. i confess that i will be more dense from now on, im helping myself to be like that but its not really easy to PRETEND eh! the hardest part fate would be asking from me is to PRETEND. i envy those people who are very good at it. i confess that i was wishing worst for that person... but nahhh... i should be more stronger fighter. if that person really want to be like that to me, then be it,