[b]Duch[/b] Yeah. Like pounding and crushing your entire being into pieces. [b]I confess...[/b] [spoiler]1. That I'd rather die right now than continue the freaking life that I'm currently in. Although I look so damn happy or whatever, it's not everything that you're seeing. There's a lot more inside and they're not good. 2. That I actually want to rewind everything and hit pause while I'm sleeping. Keep it that way for about a minute, then hit play again. The few moments that my life will be paused, I won't feel the pain that's drilling onto my head, my heart, my fcking soul. In short, [b]THE WHOLE ME.[/b] 3. That you can consider my status now as: [i]BREATHING FOR LUCK[/i]. And I'm not getting any luck, obviously. 4. That I'd rather he [b]DID NOT[/b] love me in the first place. Or maybe that he [b]DID NOT[/b] love me at all. The fcking [s]LOVE[/s] complicates my life, his life, their lives. 5. That I'd rather we didn't know each other at all. Total strangers. And I have no plans of knowing him 'cause I know he'll break my heart. But I'm too late to realize that now. 6. That the forum's emoticons can never explain how I'm feeling now. Maybe if I'll use all the emoticons that existed ever since the World Wide Web began, I can show you how much I hate myself for doing stupid things in the [i]not so[/i] past time.[/spoiler] I'll be posting [b]LOTS[/b] of confessions since I don't have any reasons not to. Haaaaay.