i confess [spoiler] that i'm now listening "sa kanya"" by MYMP that i learned this song expresses my feelings to kuya that i wish kuya is buknoy. buknoy is always here beside me. When i'm upset, he gaves me jokes,and tease me... then later teasing me off makes me laugh. When i need help, buknoy is always here for me... helping me to solve my problem w/ him... I wish buknoy was kuya... but sadly, he can't be buknoy that i learn she is moar important than me. that i wanna cry. I wanna ask kuya why he acts better when she is there, and why he acts bad when im there in his side. that our friendship has a scratch now because of malicious news about us. that i wanna go back in time where we are happy together... that i rily wish kuya was buknoy that i dunno what 2 feel. I try not to be mad to her,but after all this pain i'm going on, i'm learning to hate her `coz of kuya that i dunno why buknoy is always at my side,and why not my kuya? that i learn i always say im okay but inside im not. that i rily uber duper miss the old kuya. he changed. he's not the kuya i know... i wish... deeply wish... and i rily pray that kuya is buknoy... that im happy to kristal coz she has akiko to protect her,to love her and to help her... i always envy her coz the one she luv luvs her too... unlike me, im searching and waiting for him... maybe i already found him but he changed already and that changing makes me feel bad. that i dun like what's now going on. i rily like kuya but buknoy likes me. em confused and dunno wat to do! that i didn't do 1 of my HW today. lazy mee that i wish wishes came true. that i dunno if i can wait for him to luv me too. i'm now digesting the truth that he likes her and not me that truth hurts. that's a big FACT.[/spoiler]