i confess that..... [spoiler]despite my attempts to "show" a lot of positivity and happiness.....i'm probably one of the saddest, most depressed people you'll ever meet. i just do a good job of hiding it. i swear it seems that no matter how positive i try to be something 100 times more negative comes by and erases all my positive progress. i think i can honestly say that i've never had a single moment in my life when i was truly happy....and i'm no young buck...i'll be 29 soon honestly, i struggle every day to stay alive....sometimes i really find myslef tired....of life....but by some miracle i'm still here today[/spoiler]